SHOOT ME!!!

Ever tried to forward two emails at the same time...opening two windows...one with an extremely funny stuff...and the other with an extremely embracing stuff (that r supposed to be funny...but not anymore!!)....after checking every name on the address book for the first....and just a female co-worker address for the second....and after clicking on SEND it turned out that the two emails somehow got sent all together to the "every single name on my address book" including an X-boss....

I really want to kill myself...after killing my coW-worker...

NEVER EVER try to send two emails at the same time...or maybe NEVER EVER SEND EMAILS AT ALL...I REALLY HATE MYSELF NOW!!!!...SOMEONE SHOOT ME PLEASE!!!!....

Perfectly Senseless!!!

Contemplating on the famous saying: " Its better to have loved and lost…Than never to have loved at all "…I always thought that it is stupid and could never be true…
Which brings me to this joke I heard today…it's not bad at all if u r not eating :P…
Two guys walking down the street when they came across a pile of shit…the 1st guy: 'is this a pile of shit?!'…the 2nd guy: ''no it isn't"…'I bet it is'…"I bet it isn't"…'trust me it is'…"trust me it isn't"…'I'll prove it'…he bent over and tasted it…'see I told u it is shit'…still…"no it isn't"…'trust me it is'…"no it isn't"…'try it then'…the 2nd guy tries it…"oh ya it is shit!"…'see I told u'…"ya good thing we didn't step in it!!!"…
So at the end…"it's better to taste the shit than to step in it!!!"

Like my new scarf?!...well I do...

I saw something like it somewhere on TV and instantly I sat my mind on this...it took me three days only to complete this more than 2 meters scarf *knock on wood*...while it took me additional 6 days to post this *knock on my wooden head*...

You can call me "M3etteh" but nothing can measure up to the feeling of building something from scratch and see it build up till the last knot is tied...

BONJOUR!

4:45 AM...the first attempt to wake me up for Fajer prayer...of course it didn't work....but then down the street a woman screaming!...glass breaking!...u think it's an accident?!...well think again!!!...

I got up like crazy n' went out on the balcony to check it n' I could see that my brothers r already standing at the window...i can see a Taxi and a young woman standing next to it...i thought attempt kidnap...but NO!!!...
The young woman then moved across the side fence of our building...throwing stones at a window at in our building...when she started shouting again "Ya (a guy's first name)" "the son of (a well known family name)"..."come n' pick your B**** ur sister from the streets"..."u don’t wanna come out don’t u"..."I'll call the police...i'll show u...u n' the B*** sister"...then she got in the cab again n' left...
I got in n' went to pray...but after 10 minutes...O.M.G. she's screaming again...but this time she said "Ya (a girl's first name)"..."the daughter of (the same well known family name)"..."leave my husband alone u B****"..."find urself some F**** single man"..."just leave my husband alone u B****"...
She got back to the cab n' took off again...by then the sun almost came up...n' could clearly see that she's a very attractive woman (Perfect Hair & Perfect Body)...n' a lot of ppl. were staring from their balconies...what a scene!!!...
I thought it's over by now...but NOO!!!...10 minutes latter...the screaming is back "if I saw u down the street I'll cut in two u B****" "I swear to God I'll kill u B****"...this time an elderly woman n' a young guy...what appeared to be the girl's very confused mom n' brother approached..."U say am a B****"..."I'll show u a B****"..."u wanna bring me the cops"..."am waiting right here"..."but u need to learn how to discipline that B**** daughter of urs"...she took off again screaming all the way...

By then it was 6:15 AM...i took a look at our lovely neighborhood...fancy cars!...fancy places!...fancy ppl.!...but how many shitty lives this FANCY is hiding?!!!...
I also said goodbye to 2 hours of sleep which w'd have made a nice sum of 4 hours :(...what a way to start a day!...

YOU WILL BE FORGOTTEN

Last night I literally cleaned up my closet...i got rid of some old books n' notebooks...it's good to remember how we used to pick up a pen to write so many pages...it's good to remember how I used to be a math & physics girl...

All I can say now is goodbye Vector Calculus...goodbye Vector Analysis...goodbye atomic structure...goodbye Linux...goodbye Oracle...goodbye C++ builder...am sorry I have to say this…YOU WILL BE FORGOTTEN...

Good to know!

Lately I was occupied at the Damascus International Fair as the company i work for had a big private booth there...

What caught my eyes this year is there's no sign for the Saudi or the Egyptian flags i don't know how many other countries dropped out this year!!!...well...BOOHOO!!!...as if!!!...

There was this young business woman from China "Ms. Ma" that we were supposed to keep busy as much as we could so she won't get the chance to meet others...

So i gathered a bunch of guys n' two girls she already been introduced to and my brother n' went looking for her...when we finally found her n' i introduced my brother to her...her immediate reply was not nice to meet u or any other formal reply!!..."u r so handsome"..."all of u r so good looking here"..."Just like movie stars"...that's what she said...i didn't know what to say except "well too bad they r all taken"..."except for my brother"...her reply was simply "i know a Chinese girl who w'd love to marry u"...of course my brother's smile was up to his ears...i guess he'll be hearing from her soon :P...boy we mad a scene there...

After all isn't it good to know that Syrian ppl are handsome JUST LIKE MOVIE STARS...

What do u see when u look at me?

• What do you see when you look at me
• Do you see someone limited,
• or someone free?
• All some people can do is just look and stare
• Simply because they can't see my hair.
• Others think I am controlled and uneducated
• They think that I am limited and un-liberated.
• They are so thankful that they are not me
• Because they would like to remain 'free.'
• Well free isn't exactly the word I would've used
• Describing women who are cheated on and abused.
• They think that I do not have opinions or voice
• They think that being hooded isn't my choice.
• They think that the hood makes me look caged
• That my husband or dad are totally outraged.
• All they can do is look at me in fear
• And in my eye there is a tear.
• Not because I have been stared at or made fun of
• But because people are ignoring the One up Above.
• Maybe the guys won't think I am a cutie
• But at least I am filled with more inner beauty.
• Real men are able to appreciate my mind
• And aren't busy looking at my behind.
• Hooded girls are the ones really helping the muslim cause
• The role that we play definitely deserves applause.
• We have the strength to do what we think is right
• Even if it means putting up a life long fight.
• You see we are not controlled by a mini skirt and tight shirt
• We are given only respect, and never treated like dirt.
• So you see, we are the ones that are free and liberated
• We are not the ones that are sexually terrorized and violated.
• We are the ones that are free and pure
• We're free of STD's that have no cure.
• So when people ask you how you feel about the hood
• Just sum it up by saying 'Baby, its all good!' ;)

A girl named Nadia from Sweden once wrote this poem about girls wearing hijab (covring up their hair)...well it must be said that things are different around here, but still!!

Modern History My A**

History was my most hated class in school...especially when it was about our modern history...i used to think its sooo stupid...how any retarded half-brained idiot can accept such treaties and agreements...even a stupid child could see that it's not fair and it's not in our favor!...
Now to the coming generation it will be ancient history...and i can't help but to wonder what will they think about their modern history?!!!...

Barbarians!

Please distribute let the whole world see the atrocity of the Israili barbarians.

Cowards fail to confront the resistant they target innocent children.

UN refuse to protect these children, Israel intentionally targeted them.

Syrian Bloggers say: Today, we are all Lebanese

Today, we are all Lebanese.

Lebanon has been sentenced to death. On Wednesday 12July, she was put in prison, and now she's beingtortured.
Syria and Lebanon haven't had the best relationshipover the past year, but there isn't one Syrian whowishes Israel's deadly war on our neighbour.
Israel's war is with Lebanon's civilians, notHizbollah. Nearly every person killed has been acivilian. Power stations, bridges and petrol stationshave been targeted. Israel has warned residents to getout of certain villages, but bombed roads make itdifficult - and refugee convoys have been picked outfor deadly air raids.
And getting out of the country is impossible now too.The airport has been destroyed, the sea ports areblockaded, and the border posts and highways have beenrazed to the ground.
Lebanon is held hostage to the angry Israeli warmachine. And every Syrian blogger stands by her.
Another generation of Lebanese will know nothing butwar. We can't let this happen. Again.
This post has been supported by the group of Syrian bloggers at Syria Planet.

HAZY VIEW!

No matter how much news u watch every day u can't imagine how ugly war can be!...
Oh My God...places I used to pass by like every day...and there's one TV channel that shoots from a place that seems to be right from my window right from our balcony!...what once was a cheerful view of the sea side is now a missed up dark hazy traumatized view!...
Though it seems that Mr. Hasan Nasralla is the only real MAN alive...and I admire every word of his...but I sure hope that this war won't go for long...cuz no matter how arrogant n' mean the Lebanese ppl r none ever should go through this terror...

So much for World Cup 2006

So Brazil lost the game and the world cup is over to me...ya3ni it is a big deal to me...it's a dam shame...

But I would like to say something for those who called me after the game to scorn n' teas me...

Even though it was past midnight...even though I could hardly breathe...even though i was extremely upset...
I answered your call...
Even thought I could turn my phone off...even though I could press the red button...even though I could let it keep on ringing forever...
But now i know this as a fact...
After your absurd phone call...the game score is still the same...Brazil is still out...
BUT...the numbers on ur phone bill r much bigger than before...I know now how far u can go...and so much for being there when I need u...so much for friendship...

The World Cup starts Today!

Finally it's the first game for Brazil and I can't be more sure that we're gonna win...

Funny how both Syria and Brazil are classified in what is so called third world countries...they won the world cup 5 times and I can't remember when we ever won anything...who knows?!!...

My Birthday...My cool new Key chain...

2 days ago I celebrated my birthday on the 8th of June...

I just loooooved my new key chain :D it's the coolest ever (4m Iyad & Nisrin) Thank u guys...i don’t know when or how or even why I have a thin' for cows ;P...

I just wanna say thanks to all of you how remembered starting from My family, Nisrin, Oula, Ammar, Ramaz, Lubna, Amal, Diala, Rahaf (Me ;), Dareen, Dema, Razan, Iyad, Hussam,Noor, Sara, Ahmad and Maysa...

Love you all!...

S.N.A Syrian Naggers Association :D

This is an announcement I should've made long time ago but I've been busy ;p…
Am officially a part of the Lots Of NAGGING blog team...thanks to Rahaf now I have the chance to express some of my darkest thoughts there :P...well the least I can say that now I can practice my hobby of nagging my way out there!...
I believe that nagging is a kind of fine art that need to be handled with patience and it's never just a girly thing...cuz the most notorious naggers I've ever met are guys...

Someday - Flipsyde

Try to lie but it ain't me Ain't me

Try to look but I can't see

Can't stop right now cause I'm too far

And I can't keep goin' cause it's too hard

In the day in the night it's the same thing

On the field on the block it's the same game

On the real if you stop then it's no pain

But if you can't feel pain then it's no gain

Rearrange and you change and it's all bad

And you try to maintain but you fall back

And you crawl and you slip and you slide down

Wanna make it to the top better start now

So I hold my soul and I die hard

All alone in the night in the graveyard

Someday one day I'm gonna be free and they won't try to kill me for being me

Hey someday...

You know we're gonna lose it someday

And we tryin' to hold it all together but the devil is too clever

so I'm gonna die you gonna die we gonna die

Someday one day I said...

Am soooo buying their album...

Trigger...

Yesterday I needed something to clean my earrings before butting them on so I found this nail polish remover...it is mostly alcohol...after I returned it back to it's place I took another look at it...what the hell it's doing on the shelf over my bed?!!!...it so does not belong there!!...
That's when it hit me all over again...the dates on that bottle 1998-2002...O' MY GOD it's expired 4 years ago...I put it there myself to remind me that one day I might wanna stop biting my nails n' put some nail polish...how some stupid object can trigger so many bad memories...i just quieted everything was in my hands...
It was my cousin's wedding party(not to mention that we were so close n' she was 15 at that time n' I was crying the whole time) my mom challenged me and we had a bet that she would buy me some nail polish if I can manage to grow my nails...well that was the year 1998...at the end I lost the bet but I used my charm n' she bought me not one but two transparent and pearly white...i gave away the first to a younger cousin n' kept the other it's dry now n' look disgusting...but I kept it anyway...I started this awful habit the year 1996 now 10 years latter I take a look at my bloody swollen ugly finger nails n' cant help but to tell myself what the hell is wrong with u?!...i thought u r much stronger than that!...

http://www.engrish.com/

Some humor certainly won't hurt...one of my nicest findings on the net...make sure you check it some time...also try the Adults Engrish...that's of course if you are an Adult :P...

Screw-Taiwan

Retarded-flights

Oneself-terminating-machine

Detached...

Some shit I wrote about 2 months ago...but it still feels the same!...

- Everywhere I touch it feels so cold!...
- I thought I heard someone say
- "Hurry up!" feelings are on sold...
- Believe me I tried but I just couldn't
- All my life I've been taught that I shouldn't...
- Is it because I like being free?!!...
- Or is it because am blind n' I just can't see?!...
- Either ways am numb n' am glad about it
- Who cares for sorrow?!...
- "Not Me" hear me shout it...
- "Eyes on the Prize" lord hear me say...
- Whatever happens I'll stay this way...
- Who cares if I ended up alone, as long as I got you!
- Fear never shall be ear n' forever secure...

Self Nudge!

Well I guess its time for me to wakeup and smell the shit...No more Mister Nice Girl...am really done with that...

People never stop surprising me!...how some perfectly nice person all of a sudden shows his/her true colors and all of sudden you just can't trust ppl. or even trust your self and your own judge of character..

And like my sweet 2pac said:
I can be a villian if ya let me
I'll Muthafuck ya
if ya do upset me
tell the cops to come and get me!

Funny how the song title is HEARTZ OF MEN!...:D

Shoulder to cry on...NAAAA!...

The moment i opened my eyes this day it just felt wired...my brain was absolutely working on safe mode...not even 5 cups of coffee helped...at work there's a lot of work to do but somehow a stupid virus damaged the server and every other computer at the company...we hardly could operate on one pc...all day i was wondering around disorientated...i desperately needed a hug...i thought how wonderful it would be if i had a shoulder to cry on...
But now it's almost 11 PM...thinking how amazing what a couple of friendly phone calls and a couple of 2pac songs can do!...and hopefully tomorrow is just another cheerful happy day!....

Caught up in life…

Will it's about time!...i seriously missed my blog n' I think I owe it an explanation...
Dear Blog!...
am sorry I had to leave you for a while but wallahi I was so busy...first I had my exams...thank God I did very well n' am proud of it...then I changed my job...I wasn't planning to...but things just happened...i let new ppl into my life...some am glad to keep n' some others am not so sure!...Also some ppl. Just got out of my life ...some I had to let go n' others just took off by themselves!...I got back to a very bad habit I thought I got rid of long time ago...am laughing more...eating less...sleeping more...dreaming less...crying more...n' caring much much more less...but still...things r just fine thanks to all my friends n' loved ones wallahi you are the light of my life!...so I guess am back...