Generations...

This weekend I had the strangest conversations...first I discovered that my 12 years old cousin have the complete Eminem n' 50cent collection...boy i was shocked 8/...so i felt like it was my duty to sit down with him n' gave him some "PARENTAL ADVISORY"...since his parents probably can't or wont deal with such thing...so i explained few points about what's good n' what's bad in rap music...n' i tried to make sure he'll stick to the good ones only...hehe!...i even had this 2pac VS. Eminem n' 50cent talk...i don't think he'll change his mind but at least i tried :P...

The next one took place when i was watching the former vice president interview with my family...when all of a sudden my 7 years old brother ask me...WHAT HAPPENED TO THE MASK MAN "Al MUQANA3"?!...honestly first i thought he was saying this suggesting to change the channel on some cartoons...again to my amazement he was asking about the witness in the Millis investigation 8/...
Well hope the generations to come will be ready to face the challenges of their time...n' continue to finish what we couldn't!...SO HELP THEM GOD!...

Submission, Islam & Willpower

Thank God am in some kind of peace with myself n' the world these days...so i came across a 600something pages book my mom is reading...usually i wont even come near these books...the book's name is "Al Mu3en, Al Mueen"...so i took a random shot...it talks about how that the submission to God in Islam doesn't contradict the dignity, freedom n' grace of every human being...
A saying for Eben Taymeyh: "Any person who egoism stops him/her from worshiping God and following his guiding principles...no doubt he/she will be worshipping something else...because humans are driven by willpower...and every will leads to a goal...so those who disregard God and his loving teachings as a glorifying goal will find themselves idolizing other things and will end up worshipping it...wither it's Money, Power or Image... So the more a human being devote him/her self to God the more he/she will be liberated from any other creature"

أرى طالب الدنيا وإن طال عمره . . . ونال من الدنيا سروراً و انعما
كـــــــــبان بنى بنيــانه فـأقــامه . . . فلمـا استوى ماقد بناه تهدمــا

Just say i do!...

NO it's not about a marriage proposal...but the thing is yesterday not 1 not 2...6 of my friends...either i ran into or called me...well the 6 of them told me about their screwed up relationships...i like to think of myself as a really very positive person...but come on people what's wrong?!...since i came back to this country that's about 5 years ago...i never heard about a successful relationship!!...

am not an expert when it comes to relationships n' i'll never BE...but just a little piece of advise...GuYs...stop being so ARROGANT...GiRlS...stop being so DRAMAcidal...

let's do a kind of a survey here...if anyone around here ever met someone who had a successful relationship...just say i do!...n' when i say met...i mean like really shock hands with at least once...cus the "the brother of a sister in law was a neighbor of a friend of mine" don’t count...

hehe what u know!...this post is over with not even a starred word :D...

Life! or So they SaY!

Arthur Ashe, the legendary Wimbledon (tennis championship) player was dying of CANCER...he received letters from his fans from all over the world...one of which conveyed: "Why does GOD have to select you for such a bad disease?"...To this Arthur Ashe replied: all over the world 50 Million child start playing tennis, 5 Million learn to play tennis, 500,000 learn professional tennis, 50,000 come to The circuit, 5000 reach the grand slam, 50 reach Wimbledon, 4 to semi final, 2 to the finals, and one winner...When I was holding the cup I never asked GOD "Why me?"...And today in pain I should not be asking GOD "Why me?"
Happiness keeps u Sweet...Trials keep u Strong...Sorrow keeps u Human...Failure Keeps u Humble...Success keeps u Glowing...But only God Keeps u Going..... "A winner is not one who never fails...but one who never QUITS!"...

Back !

I thought I would never live to see my Dashboard again :D...

- SLEEP DEPRIVED -

Put a scarf around it n' change the nose a little bit n' I would look exactly like that :P

I'll never steal my dad's car again...I'll never steal my dad's car again...

So it's just one of those days where everything is just so dam **********...(i made a promise to myself i wont use bad words in this post...so am trying!)...i showed up at work 30 minutes late...n' i have a French test later in witch i knew nothing about...but i told myself it's ok...i can manage to find at least an hour at work to study few words...well it turned out to be one of those days when i barley had time breath...n' the ******* girl next door(from my previous post "so consumed") entertained me with some ***** DRAMA :S...then i went back home n' i hade only 30 minutes to read few words before heading for the test!...well i forgot myself studying n' ran out late...so i told myself " u have to take u'r dad's car"...keeping in mind that it's not ok with my dad for me to take the car "long sorry!"...LUCKY me the GAS light was flashing...thank god i had some extra money to fill it with gas but first i have to pick up a girl living near bye...she had to be late 8/...Rushing like crazy to the gas station n' then to the one of the most ***** obnoxious places in this town where they had to build the French cultural center..."Ba7sah" what's with that name anyway?!...again with my ***** luck...no place to park...i went for at least two blocks...try to find ur way in those one way narrow streets with cars parked on both sides :S...n' am late remember!...so here comes the drama...i thought i found myself a place to park but it turned out to be a dead end...going backwards i hit a taxi parked on the side...the driver in his mid 40s...i just froze n' got out of the car n' asked some guy to park it right!...the girl that was with me is one of those mean ***** girls she started raising her voice on him n' i had to shut her up n' push her away...i mean really push her away like guys push each others in fights...though it was a mild scratch the guy threatened to call the cops...n' i told him please leave them out of it...then he asked me to call my dad...well saying my dad's gonna kill me...i also told him that u can call the cops or even take me to the police station but am definitely not gonna call my dad!...i asked him what now?!...he said: how much u gonna pay me to fix this...i told him that i don't know how much these things costs...again he asked me to bring some one from my side to estimate it...i told him clearly that am not gonna call anyone n' am gonna deal with this all by myself...i can see that he was amazed to her that!...so a guy from his side said give him 500...i looked at my friend n' told her that i only have 250 after i filled the car with gas...she went into her purse to see how much she got...when another guy...well i don't know how many guys were there but quite more than 10...so that guy stepped in the middle n' said give me the 250 so i gave it to him then he took the 50 n' returned them to me n' gave the rest to the taxi driver...well he said nothing n' i was relieved...n' some guy from a near hotel offered to park the car at the hotel...so he took it of course with my friend while i just standed there in shock...how i ever got out of it with only 200!...to my surprise the taxi driver ended up apologizing to me n' telling me how "2kaber" n' diplomat I am n' how a b**** my friend was...n' he sincerely offered to give me back the money...i strongly refused n' thanked him for it...n' the hotel guy also sincerely offered to give me some money!...rushing back to the French course with my friend swearing all the way while i was still in shock...the test was canceled :)...but the lesson we took was a tuff one n' i understood nothing of it :(...after that i discovered that my dad's car was in a mess with a serious twist at the right door...n' on my way home i took 2 wrong turns n' got a ticket for passing a red light i honestly didn't see cus the cars in front of me were moving...so that's just about it!....see how nice my day was?!!!!!....

More than a Flag...

I love my country I love my flag...
None ever should argue with that!...

Ladies First....Très Gentille!!!!

I came home after a long busy day…turned the TV on to see what's new...but I didn't feel like watching the news so instead I turned to my beloved mom n' asked her if there's any new news worth watching...so she told me that they caught one woman from the Jordan suicide-bombers attacks...
OK...so According to Jordanian official: the guy (the Suicider) actually waited for his wife to go first....But when she didn't blow...He asked her to go out?!!!!....R u Serious?!!!....

I ended up watching the news anyway...i needed to hear it for myself....So what exactly was he or she thinking...did they count to three...if they did then the dead husband defiantly cheated cus he didn’t go on three :D...

P.S. the woman's story on this turned out to be a completely different story...but here I commented on the official story...

...Good advice in any world...

The following lines r quoted from Planet Grenada one of my favorite blogs......I asked for permission of course.....

Choose your leaders with wisdom and forethought. To be led by a coward is to be controlled by all that the coward fears. To be led by a fool is to be led by the opportunists who control the fool. To be led by a thief is to offer up your most precious treasures to be stolen. To be led by a liar is to ask to be lied to. To be led by a tyrant is to sell yourself and those you love into slavery.

AND

Beware; all too often we say what we hear others say. We think what we are told that we think. We see what we are permitted to see. Worse, we see what we are told that we see. Repetition and pride are the keys to this. To hear and to see even an obvious lie again and again and again, maybe to say it almost by reflex, and then to defend it because we have said it, and at last to embrace it because we've defended it.

BEAUTIFUL EYES!!

like two years ago...or even more...i was watching a French movie with English subtitles on TV5...nothing else to watch on ARAB SATE :(...the film was already started for a while...but i could see that it's about two strangers who sat next to each other on a long distance bus trip...they never met before...the first was like at his early 20ies n' the second was at his mid 40ies...long story short they were sharing info. like the young one talking about what's hot n' new n' the old one is sharing his experience n' wisdom...the bus stopped for gas n' short recess...the two guys sat down at a table in the dinner...they started talking about WOMEN...well it's about time!!...
a beautiful girl passed them by n' sat at a near by table...let's see...if the human body can be divided into 2 parts horizontally...well the second half of the girl's body took over the TV screen...but luckily i got to see her face two shots later...not bad at all...
the essence of this post was the following dialog that took place between the 2 men...

Young man: Oweee!!...what was that about?!!...

Old man: Nice ha?!

Young man: sure...but it's getting harder n' harder to deal with women these days!...

Old man: why r u saying that?!

Young man: com on it's obvious...women r getting more complicated each day!

Old man: i know that!...but still there's some things that remain unchanged.......bla bla bla....

Young man: but still...u can't just go to this nice lady n' say: hey...nice Ass u got there!....

Old man: it's quit easy my friend...

Young man: u cant be serious...do wanna get me killed or something?!...

Old man: No...but u can always say: hey...u have very beautiful eyes!...

Young man: HA?!! 8/...

Old man: ya! ;)...

Young man: AHHH! ;)

bottom line he tried it n' it worked like magic...So every time some one tell me that i have beautiful eyes i try so hard to hide a big laugh...but miraculously i manage to say thanks :D...

Tagmaina - Part Three -

This tag was origionaly stolen from Omar n' passed to me by Gray Fox...i couldn't see how this can get anyone psychologically naked!...but here it goes anyway...

01. What is your favorite word?
Words starting with "STR"...straight...struggle.....

02. What is your least favorite word?
The Arabic word of "honor"...

03. What turns you on creatively, spiritually or emotionally?
A 2pac song...writing...getting on the same frequency with someone (bonding)

04. What turns you off?
Gay ppl. singing love songs...

05. What is your favorite curse word?
Shut the F*** up

06. What sound or noise do you love?
The sound of chalk bar squealing on a wooden board...it's a total turn on ;)...

07. What sound or noise do you hate?
Kids playing...kids fighting...kids watching Spacetoon...

08. What profession other than your own would you like to attempt?
Infamous writer...private investigator...

09. What profession would you not like to do?
Teaching kids...

10. What would you like to hear God say when you arrive at the Pearly Gates of Heaven?
"Carry on my beloved creature...it's all yours "...

i'll just tag Tarek Amr from Ge33n Data ...n' Abdul-Halim from Planet Grenada ...

Tagmaina -Part Two-

This tag is kinda special since it's from Egypt from Tarek Amr....thanks....

Se7en things I want/like to do:

1. Go to sleep
2. Have a cup of coffee
3. Shout out loud
4. Girls night out
5. Be able to speak some French
6. Laugh till i cry
7. Replace my damaged 2pac CDs

Se7en things I don't want/like to do:

1. Wake up early -but i have to go to work :S-
2. Being nice to dummies
3. Lose a friend
4. Lose a brother -leave the country...not dieing-
5. Hear a bad song
6. Wear high-heels -tell mom to give it up-
7. Meet some extended family members -being nice to dummies...All over again-

Se7en things I say most often (With Explanations):

1. Walla! = Nice!
2. Ah Wallaa?!! = r u serious?!
3. Ya 7raaam! = hehe that's gotta hurt! = am mean
4. La3beh = am in = some cute guy
5. Bueeeeeh!! *with tong hanging out* = it's dumm or i don't get it
6. Shoo Mshan?! = What r u aiming at?!
7. Deb or Debbeh = Bear = i hate u in a friendly way!...it's a good thing

P.S. some of the above r quoted from some close friends...it's a gang thing...

Se7en people I want to pass this tag to (Ladies First):

1. Cute NK2
2. Stellar
3. No one
4. Sara
5. Gray Fox
6. Omar
7. Sinan

Tagmaina -Part One-

Technically this is my first tag...thanks to No one though it was a tough one...So here it goes....

ABOUT
Name:	Asma'a A.K.A. Sharks
Birthday:	8 June 1982
Birthplace:	Riyad KSA
Current Location:	Damascus Syria
Eye Color:	Brown occasionally Gray ;)
Hair Color:	Am not gonna tell
Height:	Slightly over 1.55 M ;p
Right Handed or Left Handed:	Right-handed
Your Heritage:	don't know
The Shoes You Wore Today:	White boots
Your Weakness:	Easily board n' talking too much
Your Fears:	Loneliness n' cockroaches
Your Perfect Pizza:	Any pizza is a perfect pizza
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	Speak some French
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	Walla!
Thoughts First Waking Up:	OOPS **** am late again!
Your Best Physical Feature:	None
Your Bedtime:	2:00 AM (+/- 30 min)
Your Most Missed Memory:	Some childhood memories
Pepsi or Coke:	Whatever!
MacDonalds or Burger King:	Neither
Single or Group Dates:	Group Dates
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	Whatever!
Chocolate or Vanilla:	Vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee:	Coffee
Do you Smoke:	Only when am extremely pissed off
Do you Swear:	Yes
Do you Sing:	Only to tease others
Do you Shower Daily:	No
Have you Been in Love:	I guess I've been there... It sucks big time
Do you want to go to College:	Am in already
Do you want to get Married:	Most of the times I don’t feel like it
Do you belive in yourself:	Yes
Do you get Motion Sickness:	No
Do you think you are Attractive:	Nope
Are you a Health Freak:	No
Do you get along with your Parents:	70% with mom 30% with dad
Do you like Thunderstorms:	Yes
Do you play an Instrument:	NO
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	No...EW!
In the past month have you Smoked:	NO
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	NO
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	NO
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	NO
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	NO
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	NO
In the past month have you been on Stage:	NO
In the past month have you been Dumped:	NO
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	NO
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	NO
Ever been Drunk:	NO
Ever been called a Tease:	Yes A lot!
Ever been Beaten up:	Ya...i had to fight my brothers :)
Ever Shoplifted:	NO
How do you want to Die:	Does it really matter?!
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	The president :)
What country would you most like to Visit:	Japan
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:	Black
Favourite Hair Color:	Black
Short or Long Hair:	Short - bold even better :)
Height:	At least 15 cm taller than me
Weight:	Not skinny
Best Clothing Style:	Casual
Number of Drugs I have taken:	None
Number of CDs I own:	70 something
Number of Piercings:	3
Number of Tattoos:	None
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	None i guess!
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

I now tag Gray Fox....Cute NK2 n' Tarek Amr....thanks again No one...BTW...i really like ur name Rahaf better...

~ Happily Content ~

This goes out for all the ppl. living their lives in the fast lane!...ppl. who have a lot of work to do n' a little time to think...n' not necessary getting the desired outcome of their work...

Take a few seconds to think!...At the end of it all...does it really matter?!!!...

I really don't mean to sound pessimistic...but at the end of a really busy day...when I look back at what I've done...after a very productive day...i stop to think what's next?!...cus no matter how good I am...there's always gonna be someone better!...n' no matter how far I get in this life...there's always gonna be something better!...so when can I say that am happily content with where I stand in this life?!... am not a perfectionist...but what if the answer is NEVER?!...

VISION

Close the door & turn out the lights
I had a vision I died tonight
Lying breathless on the floor
Nothing to ask or wish for
I'm glad that this sick life is over
No more cold nights...it's all over
For the last time people came to see my face
Before they bury me in a few meters of space
...
No where to go no where to hide
My soul was running from side to side
Thank u God I loved u'r gift
Cus death is the best thing I can get
…
Knocking on heaven's door with a smile
If I can get in if only for a while
All the pain will be forgotten
Who want to live when we got heaven?!

P.S. I wrote this poem way before on a really bad day…cus usually am not that dark n' creepy :)…CHEERS!…

...so consumed !...

HHHHHHHH...Another boring Thursday!...it's a work day....but with no work at all :\...my boss n' her daughter are out of town n' all the others left to do some work...so I was stuck alone...with nothing to do I started going through blogs...i've been doing this for the past few days...i realized that it can be really consuming... cus I actually read them word by word....

while listening to linking park...one link lead to the other...my head started to ache...O my God....what am I doing?!!....going through all these words with all the visuals...n' some of u people really got me sucked into u'r world...i couldn't think for myself for a while...it's like am caught up in some other worlds n' ways of thinking 8...i ended up at some Canadian Muslims community blog...something about someone who's a former Black Panther (the sole black organization in the entire history of black struggle against slavery and oppression in the United States that was armed and promoted a revolutionary agenda fighting for equality, justice and freedom)...i told myself that's it....i remember doing research about them...but I never had the chance to read them offline...with the rest of the "To Read" STACK...i quit blogs n' turned linkin park off...n' went straight to "blackpanther.org"...i heard about them for the first time trough 2pac...his mom was an activist...n' I started to here about them in some movies....i do have a thin' for black ppl...when I couldn't take it any more...i went online looking for some "aimless" chatting....yay!...i found a 2pac fan I meet earlier in some Black Panther Group on the net...he's kinda nice to talk to...lucky me he was bored too :\...when I thought it's getting better...a very mushy female voice came from the back asking me if I want anything "biddek shi?"...O my God she's the girl next door!...i thought I'll make it quick n' said "salamtek!"...but I didn't get out if it this easy :(...so I had to quit everythin' listen to her...O Boy...she's the kinda girls my brother like to call "cover the Face n' fuck the Base"...not exactly my kinda girls!...now she's telling me that she's quitting her job...I had to ask why...Surprise! Surprise!....her boss is falling for her...n' poor him she don't wanna hurt him as she's starting to fall for him too...BOOHOO...since I knew this girl...every man in this world...starting from every guy in every company in our floor...is falling for her...BFFFFFF...(only in her sick mind)…for God sake!...she has a boyfriend...seeing someone on the side...n' now her boss (40 something divorced n' married again with 3 kids!!!)...lets not forget every guy in this world!...n' still I have to be nice to her...cus I know for sure that under this smily face lies a BITCH...she can bring me down as she have a very long tong witch never stop talking about ppl behind their backs :S...I really feel sorry for her...but what a day!...now I feel sorry for ME...so I turned 2pac on n' started writing this...I really felt like letting it all out...now in the back some one singing with 2pac saying somethin' about if the world is a girl he'll stick somethin' in the ground...his way of saying fuck the world :D...at the end I just wanna say to all the girls out there(the dummy ones!)...WISE UP...there's much more to life than who's falling for who!...for God sake ppl r dying out there for their beliefs...while a lot of our youth is just so consumed with bullshit!...WISE UP!...i finished with this song!...

-Oh why should you send your child off too die In the streetz of chalk where they lie And no thugz cry when thugz cry Dear God Oh why does it have to be this way, I Children of today won't stay wise Let the children hear when thugz cry Dear God, alright-
2pac"when thugz cry "

Tagging Myself....SO WHAT?!

I agree with my friend GrayFox that we should do more Tagging stuff...but meanwhile i'll go on n' tag myself....So here it goes...

10 years ago: I was 13...boy I was stupid then...we just moved back from Madina K.S.A...i knew nothing except for few things my SWEET! Mom & Dad told me...Life can be so simple!...

5 years ago: 18 hmm...i was in Beirut...n' was the meanest girl ever...my philosophy back then was "nice is week"...n' am never week So naturally always MEAN...more like funny mocking mean...my fav. Habits was starting fights n' make ppl deliberately trip n' fall :P...n' when I say ppl doesn't have to mean friends any stranger w'd do ;D...

1 year ago: much nicer n' mentally stable :D...hanging out with the coolest n' dearest friends ever...

Tomorrow: tomorrow hopefully much better than today…

5 Snacks I enjoy: Milkshakes – Pizza – yalangi – Tes2eh – Ice cream...

5 bands & artists I like: 2PAC – Linkin park –Evanescence –DMX - Hoobastank...

5 Things I'd do with $100.000.000: buy myself a cool blue convertible BMW....buy myself a 5 star resort for girls only !tong hanging out!...buy my parents a mansion full of servants & exotic plants...build a hospital for the poor....here's a good one...hire a full time assassin ;)...

5 Places I would run away to: 7aram Makka & Madina...My pillow...My balcony...the most crowded place on earth...

5 Bad habits I have: Biting my nails – Messy room – over trusting ppl - waking up late –being careless sometimes...

5 things I like doing: Music is always a good idea - writing – reading novels - staying up too late at night – hanging out with friends....

5 things I will never wear: After wearing a 13cm high heels I guess there's nothing I wont be able to wear...not necessarily in public...

5TV Shows I like: Becker –Friends - Oprah – Cow & Chicken – CSI....

5 People I'd like to meet: Prophet Muhammad - 2PAC – Malcom X – Tarek ben Ziyad -Jhony depp....

5 Movies I like: Fight Club – The Game – Final Destination – Sleepy Hollow– Bedazzled ....

5 biggest joys at the moment: My health – My hair - My friends – being able to stay up late – fighting with my lil 7 years old brother...

Now I tag my sweet NK2....

KID:S

I was searching for something cheerful for my blog when i found this...my friends already know I hate KID:S...

But here's why SOME TIMES i don't hate them that much :p....

Muslims bombarding the White House - what will you do?

One year ago my lil brother gave me an article to read...he thought i might find it interesting...well at the time i didn't 8...but yesterday i needed some space on my flash disk...i had a LOT of reading to catch up to...that's how i came across this article again...it's dated early 2002...it's OLD i know!...but i found some email addressees n' phone no. u might wanna add to u'r phone book!....
The writer of the article named !YEHUDA!..."Bombarding" actually stands for Phone calls, emails n' faxes...he even tried to be funny at the end! :S...if u wanna read the whole article link to:

http://freerepublic.com/focus/f-news/657031/posts

But it's the comments that i found most interesting!...To get u to the point here...I'll skip right to the conclusion of the article...AM JUST QUOTING HERE!...please notice the CAPITALIZED words in the article

//////Israel is America's first line against the continued spread of Islamic terror. We must all get on the phone today, tomorrow and the remainder of this week and keep calling the White House everyday to thank President Bush and encourage him to stand even stronger with Israel, America's ONLY ally in the Mid East, and to back Israel's right and obligation to use ALL means possible against Arafat's terror machine.

Every phone call, fax, and e-mail is tallied. Phone calls and faxes are the most important. Please invest the few cents necessary to place a few long distance calls/faxes to the White House.

White House Opinion Line - 202-456-1414
White House fax - 202-456-2461

(Keep in mind that one phone-call or fax is worth 100 emails! (The White House Opinion Line is open during normal business hours M-F - 9-5, EST; the fax is on 7x24...)

All terror-sponsoring dictators must be toppled and their ability to create terrorism against Israel and the US destroyed. For Israel's sake, AND FOR AMERICA'S.

The Muslims have demonstrated their worth to the world as have their European (leaders) sympathizers.

If you do not make YOUR voice heard, the other side will. NEVER AGAIN depends on YOU. Please act NOW.

Please email, phone or FAX President Bush. If you email the President at president@whitehouse.gov,

please send a CC (carbon copy) to:
Vice President Dick Cheney
vice.president@whitehouse.gov

Republican National Committee Chairman Governor Marc Racicot
chairman@rnc.org

Secretary of State Colin Powell
secretary@state.gov [please offer him a job in private industry]/////////////

The question I think should be asked here...now that we know about those phone lines n' emails...Can WE actually do something about it?!!!.....

When he said:" Every phone call, fax, and e-mail is tallied"...first I read it "Tailed" (Followed, Chased, hunted, perused) :)...i guess my subconscious was working already...if u know what I mean?! ;)...so if someone have something to say or campaigns to launch...say it!...i'll be hiding behind the sofa in case somebody asked! ;D.......

Peace out!

Why Sharks?!

This question always have to pop up...why sharks?!...usually i say cus i bite n' laugh about it...but there's a story behind that name...some of my close friends don't know it...but i think i'll share it with u...remember in my first post i said something about that almost everyone went through some kind of discrimination experience...well...here's the story of mine...

few years ago my family decided to move out to Beirut Lebanon...i was 14...i had my 10th, 11th and half of the 12th grade plus one year at the Lebanese university...back then there wasn't any tension between Syria n' Lebanon...but still Lebanese ppl hated our guts...first of all we couldn't find a school to take us in...me n' my 2 brothers...cus my English wasn't that good at the time...YA i was 1 of those (bebol)...Actually No my pronunciation was good...but my vocabulary n' dictation was a DISASTER...finally my dad managed to get us into a school owned n' ruled by a radical religious "TAKFIRI" Group...some guy at my dad's work was an active member...n' he did that hopping to get us all in the group...boy he was wrong n' we gave him some hard time...him n' all the school staff...they even called us non Muslims "KUFFAR" a couple of times!...but we never took them seriously :)...my first semester was a nightmare...i had to study Math, Physics, chemistry and the whole package in English except for 1 Arabic course n' ya i had to study English Literature...u know Shakespeare n' stuff!...i even spent the whole year trying get that WORD LETERATURE right :P...a lot of funny stories happened...but believe me back then they wasn't funny at ALL...i can't remember how much i cried :(...cus the average Lebanese student fail from 1 to 2 years in his school life...imagine our chances! 8...u should see the look in my teachers eyes...the "U R HOPELESS" look...my class mates were my enemies...they all hated me n' laughed at me big time...i hardly kept some sort of weird friendship with 2 girls...ALL this BECAUSE i was SYRIAN...but i always stood up in their face n' i can't remember how many times i started a fight about it...Thank God i passed that year with good grades too...n' to my Math BITCH surprise...I mean teacher i got the highest grade in class 18/20...n' if i didn't forgot the MEANING of the word RATIONALIZE, I would got the whole 20...it was a Bonus question for God sake!...n' ya i was elected the MEANEST girl in class;)...the next year was much better...i moved on to another school...my Lebanese accent and English was a perfection...but still my so called friends couldn't hide their hard feelings...this time i was elected the most troublesome girl in class:)...one year latter when it was the time for me to go into collage i was on top of the world...i was able to start a 3 hours conversation with a complete stranger without him or her finding out where i was from unless they asked...it sounds silly now...but it meant a lot to me back then...Cus when ppl put a LABLE on u n' JUDGE u by it...now that BITES...back to collage where i studied Math n' Physics...there i had the chance to meet ppl from almost every religion n' political party...they actually have campaigns for the student board elections...n' they fought seriously against each other...although the civil war was over...but ppl still have their own small battles...the most popular questions then was where r u from?...n' to witch party u belong?...Me being Syrian i hardly got to the next question...u know every JOKE u heard in u'r life about HOMSI n' stupid ppl...just replace the STUPID guy with a SYRIAN one...ppl from my class i don't even know their names n' they don't even have to introduce them selves...just come over to me drop a HI occasionally n' start telling me those stupid jokes...i didn't know wither should i laugh or hit them in the face...fuck em' all...it's hard to start a scene at the collage campus...so i just answered back with another joke...just replace the stupid guy with a Lebanese one...all fair...but after a while i ran out of stupid jokes...but they kept on going...n' those was the nice ones...cus some of them just come over n' say i hate u n' u'r country n' u better get the hell out of here!...so i just let them finish what they have to say...then look them in the eyes n' say that there's one more thing u don't know about Syrian...that some of them actually BITE!...n' if u don't walk away right now i swear am goanna bite u n' am not kidding...i always said it with a deep COLD smile on my face...i can be a witch some times ;)...some of them freaked out...n' some of them just cracked out laughing...that's how i got my friends...the laughing ones!...dam i miss them...unfortunately i lost contact with them...i wish i could find them some where on the net...all of them: wesam, rasha, kouthar, mariam, kareem, ghada, huda, Ali, ali n' aLI...ya three different Ali's!....so the one who came up with the name was Ali...just pick one :D...he was my best friend's boyfriend...cus although we were friends n' we hanged out a lot...but the bad comments n' jokes NEVER STOPED...some times it's so hard to take a bad joke from a friend...so my name is Asma'a it turned to Asmak :S to a strong biting SHARKS...there's been times when no one called me by my real name...n' i became Sharks since then...but am cool now...I dropped the biting game...

Remember what they say...If it doesn't KILL u...It will only make u STRONGER!...So HERE I AM !....

2pac Amaru Shakur Makaveli

this is my first post n' am gonna give it my best shot hoping it wont be boring...cus i went through some blogs around here n' i think they were worth it...some of u can be really funny guys!...i laughed my brains out :)...

first of all there's something i think i should say before going through this...i made it clear that am a big tupac fan...n' for those who don't know who he is or should i say was...for me he's the God father of RAP music...not so many ppl know that but RAP actually stands for (Revolutionary Art Poetry)...

The point am trying to declare here is that i know that rap music is not popular around here...at least not among girls...So some smart ass ppl thinks that just cus i love 2pac or rap music...they think that they found themselves a BITCH...Well Braking News Am SOOOO NOT...n' besides there's the ongoing battle between Metal ppl n' Rap ppl...for God sake grow up n' give it a rest already!...

some ppl will say that rap music is all about drugs n' graphic sex...but let me tell u something...it's not all true!...i mean i know that 90% of rap songs shown on TV r about that!...but actually it makes less than 30% of what rap music got to offer...

am in no way trying to defend myself...cus really i don't have to...but i thought i w'd set the record straight cus i don't wanna receive any disturbing notes or messages about this subject...cus i had enough with it!....
Almost everyone knows that small rectangular black n' white label on Cd's covers(Parental Advisory-Explicit Content)...well all my Cd's have this label on...except maybe for 3 or 5...but it doesn't always mean that it's bad...Am drifting away from what am trying to say...so back to my sweet 2pac...He was killed the year 1996 he was 26 then...his death remains an unsolved mystery...officially labeled as gangs related murder...but personally i don't think so...after he died he got 7 albums releases..."Loyal to the Game"his last album was released at the end of 2004...n' critics said that the best of his songs was released after he died...there was a lot of theories about his death...that he faked his own death n' he's coming back to starts a strong political black party...there was a lot of things to support this theory...for example B.I.G. Smalls also known as Notorious Biggi was a main suspect in his murder...so some of 2pac songs that was released after he supposedly died in witch 2pac says " i know who shut me n' am coming back for u"...of course using a very strong language...after a while BIG also was killed in another unsolved mystery....DAM am drifting...i can talk about this forever but long story short...am convinced that he's dead now...R.I.P.



As for me...2pac songs about sex or what i call dirty songs makes way less than 30% of his records...what attracted me to him the first place was his political views and his fight against the system n' sick societies with all what it means...from fighting poverty, ignorance, racisms and any kind of discrimination n' all about what it takes to make a difference in this sick world....Some may say that their life style is way different than ours...n' we don't have racism n' discrimination problems...but i don't think so...i Believe almost everyone went through some kind of discrimination experience..." i'll talk about mine latter "...so if u listen carefully n' get to understand what he's saying u can easily relate...n' believe it or not he respects women...n' his message to men is to know the difference between real women n' bitches cus SOME men don't seem to know the difference...also religion is another thing...i love the way he talks about God...i went through almost every 2pac website n' i couldn't find one straight answer to what was his religion...they say things like he respected all religions bla bla bla...he believed that every man is his own man bla bla bla...but i strongly believed that he converted to Islam when he was in prison n' it shows in some of his songs...but no one is ready to confess that for any reason whatsoever!...

so wither it's first thing in the morning, midday or right before i go to bed or whatever mood am in...2pac is always a GOOD idea...besides no one can make me laugh or cry like he does...So give me one good reason why i shouldn't love that man!....

Peace out!