Trigger...

Yesterday I needed something to clean my earrings before butting them on so I found this nail polish remover...it is mostly alcohol...after I returned it back to it's place I took another look at it...what the hell it's doing on the shelf over my bed?!!!...it so does not belong there!!...
That's when it hit me all over again...the dates on that bottle 1998-2002...O' MY GOD it's expired 4 years ago...I put it there myself to remind me that one day I might wanna stop biting my nails n' put some nail polish...how some stupid object can trigger so many bad memories...i just quieted everything was in my hands...
It was my cousin's wedding party(not to mention that we were so close n' she was 15 at that time n' I was crying the whole time) my mom challenged me and we had a bet that she would buy me some nail polish if I can manage to grow my nails...well that was the year 1998...at the end I lost the bet but I used my charm n' she bought me not one but two transparent and pearly white...i gave away the first to a younger cousin n' kept the other it's dry now n' look disgusting...but I kept it anyway...I started this awful habit the year 1996 now 10 years latter I take a look at my bloody swollen ugly finger nails n' cant help but to tell myself what the hell is wrong with u?!...i thought u r much stronger than that!...

http://www.engrish.com/

Some humor certainly won't hurt...one of my nicest findings on the net...make sure you check it some time...also try the Adults Engrish...that's of course if you are an Adult :P...

Screw-Taiwan

Retarded-flights

Oneself-terminating-machine

Detached...

Some shit I wrote about 2 months ago...but it still feels the same!...

- Everywhere I touch it feels so cold!...
- I thought I heard someone say
- "Hurry up!" feelings are on sold...
- Believe me I tried but I just couldn't
- All my life I've been taught that I shouldn't...
- Is it because I like being free?!!...
- Or is it because am blind n' I just can't see?!...
- Either ways am numb n' am glad about it
- Who cares for sorrow?!...
- "Not Me" hear me shout it...
- "Eyes on the Prize" lord hear me say...
- Whatever happens I'll stay this way...
- Who cares if I ended up alone, as long as I got you!
- Fear never shall be ear n' forever secure...

Self Nudge!

Well I guess its time for me to wakeup and smell the shit...No more Mister Nice Girl...am really done with that...

People never stop surprising me!...how some perfectly nice person all of a sudden shows his/her true colors and all of sudden you just can't trust ppl. or even trust your self and your own judge of character..

And like my sweet 2pac said:
I can be a villian if ya let me
I'll Muthafuck ya
if ya do upset me
tell the cops to come and get me!

Funny how the song title is HEARTZ OF MEN!...:D