Sunday, May 21, 2006
Trigger...
That's when it hit me all over again...the dates on that bottle 1998-2002...O' MY GOD it's expired 4 years ago...I put it there myself to remind me that one day I might wanna stop biting my nails n' put some nail polish...how some stupid object can trigger so many bad memories...i just quieted everything was in my hands...
It was my cousin's wedding party(not to mention that we were so close n' she was 15 at that time n' I was crying the whole time) my mom challenged me and we had a bet that she would buy me some nail polish if I can manage to grow my nails...well that was the year 1998...at the end I lost the bet but I used my charm n' she bought me not one but two transparent and pearly white...i gave away the first to a younger cousin n' kept the other it's dry now n' look disgusting...but I kept it anyway...I started this awful habit the year 1996 now 10 years latter I take a look at my bloody swollen ugly finger nails n' cant help but to tell myself what the hell is wrong with u?!...i thought u r much stronger than that!...
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
http://www.engrish.com/
Screw-Taiwan
Saturday, May 13, 2006
Detached...
Some shit I wrote about 2 months ago...but it still feels the same!...
- Everywhere I touch it feels so cold!...
- I thought I heard someone say
- "Hurry up!" feelings are on sold...
- Believe me I tried but I just couldn't
- All my life I've been taught that I shouldn't...
- Is it because I like being free?!!...
- Or is it because am blind n' I just can't see?!...
- Either ways am numb n' am glad about it
- Who cares for sorrow?!...
- "Not Me" hear me shout it...
- "Eyes on the Prize" lord hear me say...
- Whatever happens I'll stay this way...
- Who cares if I ended up alone, as long as I got you!
- Fear never shall be ear n' forever secure...
Self Nudge!
Well I guess its time for me to wakeup and smell the shit...No more Mister Nice Girl...am really done with that...
People never stop surprising me!...how some perfectly nice person all of a sudden shows his/her true colors and all of sudden you just can't trust ppl. or even trust your self and your own judge of character..
And like my sweet 2pac said:
I'll Muthafuck ya
if ya do upset me
tell the cops to come and get me!
Funny how the song title is HEARTZ OF MEN!...:D
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
Shoulder to cry on...NAAAA!...
But now it's almost 11 PM...thinking how amazing what a couple of friendly phone calls and a couple of 2pac songs can do!...and hopefully tomorrow is just another cheerful happy day!....
Sunday, March 26, 2006
Caught up in life…
Dear Blog!...
am sorry I had to leave you for a while but wallahi I was so busy...first I had my exams...thank God I did very well n' am proud of it...then I changed my job...I wasn't planning to...but things just happened...i let new ppl into my life...some am glad to keep n' some others am not so sure!...Also some ppl. Just got out of my life ...some I had to let go n' others just took off by themselves!...I got back to a very bad habit I thought I got rid of long time ago...am laughing more...eating less...sleeping more...dreaming less...crying more...n' caring much much more less...but still...things r just fine thanks to all my friends n' loved ones wallahi you are the light of my life!...so I guess am back...
Saturday, December 31, 2005
Generations...
The next one took place when i was watching the former vice president interview with my family...when all of a sudden my 7 years old brother ask me...WHAT HAPPENED TO THE MASK MAN "Al MUQANA3"?!...honestly first i thought he was saying this suggesting to change the channel on some cartoons...again to my amazement he was asking about the witness in the Millis investigation 8/...
Well hope the generations to come will be ready to face the challenges of their time...n' continue to finish what we couldn't!...SO HELP THEM GOD!...
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
Submission, Islam & Willpower
A saying for Eben Taymeyh: "Any person who egoism stops him/her from worshiping God and following his guiding principles...no doubt he/she will be worshipping something else...because humans are driven by willpower...and every will leads to a goal...so those who disregard God and his loving teachings as a glorifying goal will find themselves idolizing other things and will end up worshipping it...wither it's Money, Power or Image... So the more a human being devote him/her self to God the more he/she will be liberated from any other creature"
كـــــــــبان بنى بنيــانه فـأقــامه . . . فلمـا استوى ماقد بناه تهدمــا
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
Just say i do!...
am not an expert when it comes to relationships n' i'll never BE...but just a little piece of advise...GuYs...stop being so ARROGANT...GiRlS...stop being so DRAMAcidal...
let's do a kind of a survey here...if anyone around here ever met someone who had a successful relationship...just say i do!...n' when i say met...i mean like really shock hands with at least once...cus the "the brother of a sister in law was a neighbor of a friend of mine" don’t count...
hehe what u know!...this post is over with not even a starred word :D...
Saturday, December 17, 2005
Life! or So they SaY!
Happiness keeps u Sweet...Trials keep u Strong...Sorrow keeps u Human...Failure Keeps u Humble...Success keeps u Glowing...But only God Keeps u Going..... "A winner is not one who never fails...but one who never QUITS!"...
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
I'll never steal my dad's car again...I'll never steal my dad's car again...
Monday, November 21, 2005
Monday, November 14, 2005
Ladies First....Très Gentille!!!!
OK...so According to Jordanian official: the guy (the Suicider) actually waited for his wife to go first....But when she didn't blow...He asked her to go out?!!!!....R u Serious?!!!....
Sunday, November 13, 2005
...Good advice in any world...
Choose your leaders with wisdom and forethought. To be led by a coward is to be controlled by all that the coward fears. To be led by a fool is to be led by the opportunists who control the fool. To be led by a thief is to offer up your most precious treasures to be stolen. To be led by a liar is to ask to be lied to. To be led by a tyrant is to sell yourself and those you love into slavery.
AND
Beware; all too often we say what we hear others say. We think what we are told that we think. We see what we are permitted to see. Worse, we see what we are told that we see. Repetition and pride are the keys to this. To hear and to see even an obvious lie again and again and again, maybe to say it almost by reflex, and then to defend it because we have said it, and at last to embrace it because we've defended it.
Monday, November 07, 2005
BEAUTIFUL EYES!!
like two years ago...or even more...i was watching a French movie with English subtitles on TV5...nothing else to watch on ARAB SATE :(...the film was already started for a while...but i could see that it's about two strangers who sat next to each other on a long distance bus trip...they never met before...the first was like at his early 20ies n' the second was at his mid 40ies...long story short they were sharing info. like the young one talking about what's hot n' new n' the old one is sharing his experience n' wisdom...the bus stopped for gas n' short recess...the two guys sat down at a table in the dinner...they started talking about WOMEN...well it's about time!!...
a beautiful girl passed them by n' sat at a near by table...let's see...if the human body can be divided into 2 parts horizontally...well the second half of the girl's body took over the TV screen...but luckily i got to see her face two shots later...not bad at all...
the essence of this post was the following dialog that took place between the 2 men...
Young man: Oweee!!...what was that about?!!...
Old man: Nice ha?!
Young man: sure...but it's getting harder n' harder to deal with women these days!...
Old man: why r u saying that?!
Young man: com on it's obvious...women r getting more complicated each day!
Old man: i know that!...but still there's some things that remain unchanged.......bla bla bla....
Young man: but still...u can't just go to this nice lady n' say: hey...nice Ass u got there!....
Old man: it's quit easy my friend...
Young man: u cant be serious...do wanna get me killed or something?!...
Old man: No...but u can always say: hey...u have very beautiful eyes!...
Young man: HA?!! 8/...
Old man: ya! ;)...
Young man: AHHH! ;)
bottom line he tried it n' it worked like magic...So every time some one tell me that i have beautiful eyes i try so hard to hide a big laugh...but miraculously i manage to say thanks :D...
Tagmaina - Part Three -
01. What is your favorite word?
Words starting with "STR"...straight...struggle.....
02. What is your least favorite word?
The Arabic word of "honor"...
03. What turns you on creatively, spiritually or emotionally?
A 2pac song...writing...getting on the same frequency with someone (bonding)
04. What turns you off?
Gay ppl. singing love songs...
05. What is your favorite curse word?
Shut the F*** up
06. What sound or noise do you love?
The sound of chalk bar squealing on a wooden board...it's a total turn on ;)...
07. What sound or noise do you hate?
Kids playing...kids fighting...kids watching Spacetoon...
08. What profession other than your own would you like to attempt?
Infamous writer...private investigator...
09. What profession would you not like to do?
Teaching kids...
10. What would you like to hear God say when you arrive at the Pearly Gates of Heaven?
"Carry on my beloved creature...it's all yours "...
i'll just tag Tarek Amr from Ge33n Data ...n' Abdul-Halim from Planet Grenada ...
Monday, October 31, 2005
Tagmaina -Part Two-
This tag is kinda special since it's from Egypt from Tarek Amr....thanks....
Se7en things I want/like to do:
1. Go to sleep
2. Have a cup of coffee
3. Shout out loud
4. Girls night out
5. Be able to speak some French
6. Laugh till i cry
7. Replace my damaged 2pac CDs
Se7en things I don't want/like to do:
1. Wake up early -but i have to go to work :S-
2. Being nice to dummies
3. Lose a friend
4. Lose a brother -leave the country...not dieing-
5. Hear a bad song
6. Wear high-heels -tell mom to give it up-
7. Meet some extended family members -being nice to dummies...All over again-
Se7en things I say most often (With Explanations):
1. Walla! = Nice!
2. Ah Wallaa?!! = r u serious?!
3. Ya 7raaam! = hehe that's gotta hurt! = am mean
4. La3beh = am in = some cute guy
5. Bueeeeeh!! *with tong hanging out* = it's dumm or i don't get it
6. Shoo Mshan?! = What r u aiming at?!
7. Deb or Debbeh = Bear = i hate u in a friendly way!...it's a good thing
P.S. some of the above r quoted from some close friends...it's a gang thing...
Se7en people I want to pass this tag to (Ladies First):
1. Cute NK2
2. Stellar
3. No one
4. Sara
5. Gray Fox
6. Omar
7. Sinan
Tagmaina -Part One-
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
~ Happily Content ~
Take a few seconds to think!...At the end of it all...does it really matter?!!!...
I really don't mean to sound pessimistic...but at the end of a really busy day...when I look back at what I've done...after a very productive day...i stop to think what's next?!...cus no matter how good I am...there's always gonna be someone better!...n' no matter how far I get in this life...there's always gonna be something better!...so when can I say that am happily content with where I stand in this life?!... am not a perfectionist...but what if the answer is NEVER?!...
Close the door & turn out the lights
I had a vision I died tonight
Lying breathless on the floor
Nothing to ask or wish for
I'm glad that this sick life is over
No more cold nights...it's all over
For the last time people came to see my face
Before they bury me in a few meters of space
...
No where to go no where to hide
My soul was running from side to side
Thank u God I loved u'r gift
Cus death is the best thing I can get
…
Knocking on heaven's door with a smile
If I can get in if only for a while
All the pain will be forgotten
Who want to live when we got heaven?!
P.S. I wrote this poem way before on a really bad day…cus usually am not that dark n' creepy :)…CHEERS!…
Thursday, September 22, 2005
...so consumed !...
while listening to linking park...one link lead to the other...my head started to ache...O my God....what am I doing?!!....going through all these words with all the visuals...n' some of u people really got me sucked into u'r world...i couldn't think for myself for a while...it's like am caught up in some other worlds n' ways of thinking 8...i ended up at some Canadian Muslims community blog...something about someone who's a former Black Panther (the sole black organization in the entire history of black struggle against slavery and oppression in the United States that was armed and promoted a revolutionary agenda fighting for equality, justice and freedom)...i told myself that's it....i remember doing research about them...but I never had the chance to read them offline...with the rest of the "To Read" STACK...i quit blogs n' turned linkin park off...n' went straight to "blackpanther.org"...i heard about them for the first time trough 2pac...his mom was an activist...n' I started to here about them in some movies....i do have a thin' for black ppl...when I couldn't take it any more...i went online looking for some "aimless" chatting....yay!...i found a 2pac fan I meet earlier in some Black Panther Group on the net...he's kinda nice to talk to...lucky me he was bored too :\...when I thought it's getting better...a very mushy female voice came from the back asking me if I want anything "biddek shi?"...O my God she's the girl next door!...i thought I'll make it quick n' said "salamtek!"...but I didn't get out if it this easy :(...so I had to quit everythin' listen to her...O Boy...she's the kinda girls my brother like to call "cover the Face n' fuck the Base"...not exactly my kinda girls!...now she's telling me that she's quitting her job...I had to ask why...Surprise! Surprise!....her boss is falling for her...n' poor him she don't wanna hurt him as she's starting to fall for him too...BOOHOO...since I knew this girl...every man in this world...starting from every guy in every company in our floor...is falling for her...BFFFFFF...(only in her sick mind)…for God sake!...she has a boyfriend...seeing someone on the side...n' now her boss (40 something divorced n' married again with 3 kids!!!)...lets not forget every guy in this world!...n' still I have to be nice to her...cus I know for sure that under this smily face lies a BITCH...she can bring me down as she have a very long tong witch never stop talking about ppl behind their backs :S...I really feel sorry for her...but what a day!...now I feel sorry for ME...so I turned 2pac on n' started writing this...I really felt like letting it all out...now in the back some one singing with 2pac saying somethin' about if the world is a girl he'll stick somethin' in the ground...his way of saying fuck the world :D...at the end I just wanna say to all the girls out there(the dummy ones!)...WISE UP...there's much more to life than who's falling for who!...for God sake ppl r dying out there for their beliefs...while a lot of our youth is just so consumed with bullshit!...WISE UP!...i finished with this song!...
-Oh why should you send your child off too die In the streetz of chalk where they lie And no thugz cry when thugz cry Dear God Oh why does it have to be this way, I Children of today won't stay wise Let the children hear when thugz cry Dear God, alright-
2pac"when thugz cry "
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
Tagging Myself....SO WHAT?!
10 years ago: I was 13...boy I was stupid then...we just moved back from Madina K.S.A...i knew nothing except for few things my SWEET! Mom & Dad told me...Life can be so simple!...
5 years ago: 18 hmm...i was in Beirut...n' was the meanest girl ever...my philosophy back then was "nice is week"...n' am never week So naturally always MEAN...more like funny mocking mean...my fav. Habits was starting fights n' make ppl deliberately trip n' fall :P...n' when I say ppl doesn't have to mean friends any stranger w'd do ;D...
5 Places I would run away to: 7aram Makka & Madina...My pillow...My balcony...the most crowded place on earth...
5 things I like doing: Music is always a good idea - writing – reading novels - staying up too late at night – hanging out with friends....
5 things I will never wear: After wearing a 13cm high heels I guess there's nothing I wont be able to wear...not necessarily in public...
Now I tag my sweet NK2....
Monday, September 12, 2005
KID:S
I was searching for something cheerful for my blog when i found this...my friends already know I hate KID:S...
But here's why SOME TIMES i don't hate them that much :p....
Saturday, September 10, 2005
Muslims bombarding the White House - what will you do?
The writer of the article named !YEHUDA!..."Bombarding" actually stands for Phone calls, emails n' faxes...he even tried to be funny at the end! :S...if u wanna read the whole article link to:
http://freerepublic.com/focus/f-news/657031/posts
But it's the comments that i found most interesting!...To get u to the point here...I'll skip right to the conclusion of the article...AM JUST QUOTING HERE!...please notice the CAPITALIZED words in the article
//////Israel is America's first line against the continued spread of Islamic terror. We must all get on the phone today, tomorrow and the remainder of this week and keep calling the White House everyday to thank President Bush and encourage him to stand even stronger with Israel, America's ONLY ally in the Mid East, and to back Israel's right and obligation to use ALL means possible against Arafat's terror machine.
Every phone call, fax, and e-mail is tallied. Phone calls and faxes are the most important. Please invest the few cents necessary to place a few long distance calls/faxes to the White House.
White House Opinion Line - 202-456-1414
White House fax - 202-456-2461
(Keep in mind that one phone-call or fax is worth 100 emails! (The White House Opinion Line is open during normal business hours M-F - 9-5, EST; the fax is on 7x24...)
All terror-sponsoring dictators must be toppled and their ability to create terrorism against Israel and the US destroyed. For Israel's sake, AND FOR AMERICA'S.
The Muslims have demonstrated their worth to the world as have their European (leaders) sympathizers.
If you do not make YOUR voice heard, the other side will. NEVER AGAIN depends on YOU. Please act NOW.
Please email, phone or FAX President Bush. If you email the President at president@whitehouse.gov,
please send a CC (carbon copy) to:
Vice President Dick Cheney
vice.president@whitehouse.gov
Republican National Committee Chairman Governor Marc Racicot
chairman@rnc.org
Secretary of State Colin Powell
secretary@state.gov [please offer him a job in private industry]/////////////
The question I think should be asked here...now that we know about those phone lines n' emails...Can WE actually do something about it?!!!.....
When he said:" Every phone call, fax, and e-mail is tallied"...first I read it "Tailed" (Followed, Chased, hunted, perused) :)...i guess my subconscious was working already...if u know what I mean?! ;)...so if someone have something to say or campaigns to launch...say it!...i'll be hiding behind the sofa in case somebody asked! ;D.......
Peace out!





