Getting Started

A picture is worth a thousand words...

2012-01-01T00:11:00.009+02:00

Barzeh December 29, 2011

Zahira December 20, 2011

Jobar December 04, 2011

Qaboon July 14, 2011

** And for all the moments that went by without pictures... 2011... what can I say?!...not a thousand pictures...not a million words could do you justice!!

Coming a long way!

2011-12-05T03:00:00.009+02:00

Dear Blog,
I just can’t believe it’s been exactly a year since I posted something...it’s not that I don’t have much to...God knows I have a lot but for the most part finding decent words is becoming more of a problem these days...

On the 5^th of December 2010 I posted about a pleasant 2 n half hours spent with my brothers. A night with plenty of laughter that took place on the 4^th of December 2010.

And here I am on the 5^th of December 2011 posting about almost 4 hours of anticipation, some tears, plenty of screams n shout outs, plenty of damning a damned soul, plenty of wishing peace on a blessed soul, plenty of bullets, sneaking in, some anticipation again, sneaking out n few hours afterwards spent in shock... all which took place on the 4^th of December 2011 with hundreds, possibly thousands of brothers n sisters I’ve never even met before...

December 4, 2011 will go down in history as the day I almost got shot....

“Just Like Us” Comedy Show

2010-12-05T15:23:00.002+02:00

Yesterday December 04, 2010 I went to my first live stand-up comedy show –Syria’s first as well -featuring 3 international comedians (Ahmed Ahmed an Egyptian-American, Angelo Tsarouchas a Greek- Canadian & Erik Griffin a Jamaican-American).

My younger brother M turned 25 the day before n it was my gift to him n to myself as well though am not turning into anything anytime soon but hell these ppl were so freakin funny I laughed my heart out for 2 n a half hours non-stop that I ended up with a headache.

The movie on which the show is based on: http://justlikeusthemovie.com/

I DID IT! I DID IT! I JUMPED! :D

2010-10-24T11:02:00.002+03:00

Thursday October 21st 2010, I did it...I went bungee jumping!

It was scheduled @ 6 PM we (my bro & I) arrived around 5:30 but it actually happened around 7:30 but NO COMPLAINTS HERE!! we really didn’t mind it, at least I didn’t!!! :P

I was tied up at the ankles by a fluffy soft leopard shackles by a gay version of superman! well he was wearing a superman tshirt n I don’t think he was gay but he’s not quit the superman either! :D

when I got on that crane n started ascending I cursed the hell out of myself for doing it...I was freaking out in ways I never thought possible n when the moment has come I really couldn’t let go!

when I got in the air my heart stopped beating n I couldn’t breath till the rope hit its end the first time...only then I was able to get some kinda of sense of what’s going on n from that moment on I started screaming n wowing n I could hear ppl applauding :P I was so hyper afterwards but the adrenaline rush wasn’t quite as I expected, half even less as tense as I though it w’d be but a couple of hours latter when it wore off it was unmistakable! I felt so tired I couldn’t even left a finger n I had the best sleep I had in a long time.........

It was AMAZING n am definitely doing it again! maybe next time I’ll actually jump instead of asking the tech guys to push me! :P

yet again less things to do on my “Things to do before I turn 30” list...I think am almost done, if only I can remember where I did put the damn thing! :P

Désir

2010-04-05T03:59:00.005+03:00

C'est vous qui m'a créé...c'est vous qui m'a donné une âme inquiète...c'est vous qui m'a donné un cœur qui même après 27 longues années il ne peut pas trouver le courage d'avoir des sentiments pour un autre humain parce qu'il a peur de se blesser et brisée...

il fait bon être vu et entendu...il est bon de se sentir désiré...et je sais que c'est seulement vous qui peut me voir et m'entendre...et quand je suis dans la merde je sais que c'est seulement vous sur qui je peux compter...

Vous avez été très bon avec moi et je suis reconnaissant pour toutes les bénédictions...je le dois à moi-même et à vous que je me réveiller et essayer de profiter au maximum de chaque jour...mais aujourd'hui tout que je veux est que vous me veux ! ma cœur, mon corps et m’âme…vient et réclamer ce que déjà appartient à vous!

Toujours avec un sourire, grâce à vous mon Dieu!

“The Face”

2009-12-02T10:30:00.001+02:00

it’s a novel by Dean Koontz I finished reading this week, it’s a really nice one n’ if it wasn’t for the supernatural stuff I’d say it’s perfect!...

the thing about it is that it got me introduced to Anarchism which otherwise might not have heard of...Corky, the bad guy -who I grew fond of at the beginning- was aiming at the destruction of society as an agent of chaos, by the end of the novel he gets killed only after we find out that he is nothing but a psycho with OCD “Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder”

Here r some quotes I really liked:
during the Great Depression...“When steel sagged, when clothes grew moth-eaten on haberdashery racks, when cars rusted on showrooms floors for want of customers, the film industry nevertheless flourished. in bad times as in good, the only two absolute necessities were food and illusions.”

“Dunny wanders room to room, moved by humanity’s desire to make beautiful its habitat and thereby bravely to deny that the roughness of the world must be endured. Every palace and every work of art is only dust as yet unrealized, and time is the patient wind that will wither it away. Nevertheless, men and women have given great thought, effort, and care to making these rooms appealing, because they hope, against all evidence, that their lives have meaning and that in their talents lies a purpose larger than themselves.”

Oblivion...

2009-10-06T01:51:00.004+03:00

“beating softly”: hey! u don’t have to look after me...am fine here...go run along with ur plans...i’ll be here when u need me!...

me: running...what’s that noise?!...umm...it’s probably nothing!...
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“beating anxiously”: I know I said u don’t have to worry about me...but it w’d be nice if u looked my way every once in a while!...just see how am doing!...

me: still running...still cant hear a thing!...
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“beating violently”: hey bitch!...i can’t take this anymore...u cant keep doing this to me...like it or not am here...i know u can hear me!!...

me: why a heart attack sounds like a good idea right now?!!

On friendships...

2009-09-19T05:10:00.000+03:00

For so many reasons I never believed in the “foreverness” of friendships or relationships in general...i used to think that the clichés ppl. use “like my bro/sis”& “BFF’s”.... r mere stupidity n’ some media influenced crap!!

maybe because of our constant moving in the past I picked up a terrible habit...whenever I meet new ppl. or start new friendships...consciously or not I w’d setup an expiry date for everyone!...so that when it’s time to say goodbye I’d be more than prepared n’ more like “ HA3!! I KNEW IT!!”....n’ surprisingly I hardly ever missed an expiry date....

Lately life’s proving me wrong in too many ways...after missing every expiry date I put for my heavenly friends...after being through a lot together for sooo many amazing years I actually felt it!!...i truly felt like each one is like a brother to me n’ girls r the sisters I never had!! I still can’t believe this actually happened to me...I honestly never thought I had it in me to have those feelings for strangers!!

are these ppl. friends for life?....yes!.....will we be together forever?....No!... it’s a curse!! It’s a fucking curse!! It hurts real bad to see them leave one after the other when they r no way near their expiry dates n’ there’s really nothing I can do about it!! The only thing I can do maybe...wish them good luck!!...till we meet again!!...my friends!!....

Gemini vs. Psycho

2008-11-21T03:02:00.003+02:00

I don’t know how this may sound maybe a lil bit cheesy but am gonna say it anyhow :D

So I’ve been called a weirdo, crazy, nutjob and most recently a psycho...most of the times they were meant in a good sense but there were times when it felt like serious accusations that w’d lead me to a depressing overall-self-revision...Here where I must say the old cliché...i don’t believe in the daily horoscope crap n’ I really don’t but few years earlier I came to believe in the general personality traits of the sign after realizing how much every Gemini “weirdo” have in common n’ how that most of the ppl. that fascinate me-as rare as that happens-usually turn out to be Geminis...

Recently I realized that there’s a pattern to the kind of behavior that w’d give me those lovely “pet names” so I decided to google it up n’ I just couldn’t believe my eyes!!...the no. of threads I got on the connection between being a Gemini n’ having disorders to be more specific Bipolar & Borderline disorders I even found a published school paper which calls it “The "Gemini" Disorder”!!!

I know for a fact that ppl. hardly ever understands how a person can be so many opposite extremes at the same time and when u add to that some of the other Gemini traits the result is a perfect combination for a “WEIRDO”...but at the end I guess I can say that psycho or not am a happy person “mostly”–all thanks to God- and of course I have some issues that maybe I don’t even wanna deal with or at least not yet...so psycho or not am proud to be a GEMINI! :)

I hear blood, I see blood

2008-10-29T00:14:00.004+03:00

Monday October 20, 2008 my dad had a heart bypass surgery...this wouldn’t be a problem at all if it wasn’t for the “rare complication” according to the doctor which manifested in an internal bleeding that they had to rush him back to the OR to fix it...I’d say this also wouldn’t be a problem if my dad’s blood type was anything but AB- which is according to the blood bank “dude” the rarest type in the country...being the only match available I had to rush in the middle of the night to donate some of my blood and exchange it for some of the bank stocks...I learned that this is the only way “bring a donor & pay 950 SP/unit” and NO the hospital is not responsible for any of that!!...thank God by dawn everything was ok but again around noon he needed more blood which left us all in panic...everyone called almost everyone he/she knows n’ in less than an hour we got a handful of matching donors but even better!...one of my uncles happens to know a significant “someone” which lead to us taking the last unit of AB- blood without having to wait for the donors and leaving another woman with 4 units short...ever since am pleading for those with rare blood types to donate regularly...I know I will & I will even set a reminder to that cuz even though our ordeal has passed but I do believe that we still owe it to society...

I always knew that u can find ur way almost through anything in this beloved country if u just knew the right “someone”...but honestly this is the last place I expected...vitamin “W “ as in “Works every time”

Comme Ça

2008-10-17T00:36:00.011+03:00

C’est un passage de “Arsène Guillot “, bizarrement j'ai compris ce que ça veut dire et je pense c’est très vrai !!

“Pourquoi, madame, aime-t-on toujours les mauvais sujets ? Depuis l’infant prodigue jusqu'à votre chien Diamant, qui mord tout le monde et qui est la plus méchante bête que je connaisse, on inspire d’autant plus d’intérêt qu’on en mérite moins. – Vanité ! Pure vanité, madame, que ce sentimental-là! Plaisir de la difficulté vaincue ! Le père de l’enfant prodigue a vaincu le diable et lui a retiré sa proie ; vous avez triomphé du mauvais naturel de Diamant à force de gimblettes.”

N'hésitez pas à me corriger si je me trompe :)

P.S. Translation available in the comments section

YA BATTEEEEEL!!!

2008-09-26T01:17:00.005+03:00

The following dialogue took place in Damascus on September 25, 2008...the characters and names are all real ppl. I didn’t make anything up...

M: C r u Shameiyh*?!
C: No am not!
M: Good cuz I hate Shwaam* I can’t stand them at all!
C: well my grandma is Shamieyh*...
M:!!
C (in prompt justification): but she’s NNNNNNN* I hate them too u know!
M (smiling): once a Shami* proposed to me and I refused though the poor thing and his mom did everything they can...but my dad told them NNNNN** (with a sneaky smile all over her face)...
NNNNNN*

Now myself being a damascene am not gonna say how I felt about it...and I have no idea where the hell those two girls r from...but am wondering if I was in Homs* around at least a dozen of ppl. wont I assume that at least one of those ppl. is Homsi*?! I wonder how he w’d feel if I said in front of him that I hate Homsi* ppl.?! and most important I wonder what w’d he do about it?!!!
I must say here that I don’t have anything against homsi ppl. on the contrary I think they r very nice ppl.
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*Shwam: damascene ppl. =the native inhabitants of Damascus city the capital of Syria
*Shameiyh: female damascene - *Shami: male damascene
*NNNNN: the sound coming from the vacuum cleaner guy approaching behind my back
*Homs: a Syrian city- *Homsi: a male from Homs

For real?!

2008-09-04T05:26:00.006+03:00

“Sooner or later a man who wears two faces forgets which one is real!!”

This is a quote I came across recently reading “Primal Fear”...the book itself is great if only I haven’t realized half way through that I’ve already seen the movie :S

Being a Gemini “the ultimate two-faced “ this always been somewhat an agonizing point that keeps on nagging my conscience every once in a while !! where doest it all stop?! How n’ where to draw the line between the real authentic self and the courteous just “getting by” everyday self ?!! I mean I know I can do both but when it stops being practical n’ starts being hypocritical?!...Recently it’s becoming more like an obsession trying to figure it out hoping not to fall for hypocrisy n' the book sure didn't make it any easier!!

Updates:
eventually I came to believe that I shouldn’t be so hard on myself...hypocrisy always been a hotspot for me but I guess there’s nothing wrong with being practical as long as I keep it to its minimal limit n’ to keep things balanced spending more time with ppl. i can be my true self with can be quite helpful...
So now after the first week at the new job I guess it’s time for some emergency meet ups with my friends to counter act all the practicality I practiced during this week :D

New Chapter:

2008-08-17T00:24:00.008+03:00

August 14 was my last day working at Spacetoon ending exactly 1 year and a half of my employment there...so far this is the longest I’ve stayed in one place...n’ although am moving on to my dream job to a place I always promised myself I’ll get into...my “NEVER GET ATTACHED” plan didn’t work for me this time...but whatever...I’ll get over it...

Before u start judging this pic. let me tell u that It is my “Farewell cake”...one of the guys drew it n’ he thought it w’d be funny ...this is the “terrorist” version of me cuz let me be clear here this is not how I dress n’ this is not how wear my scarf n’ this is definitely not my nose :D...the Canadian flag in my pocket is a hint to the new job n’ the point of covering my face is that u can still tell it’s me by looking at my shoes n’ yes this is me blowing up the building after I’ve left :D

BLUE BLUE!

2008-08-09T02:35:00.000+03:00

This time I had to let a professional do it and it took exactly five hours to do so n’ the result is now I have blue hair and less things to do on my “things to do before am 30” list...

Am Happy :D

It hurts so good :D

2008-07-30T01:14:00.002+03:00

This is probably one of the most intense weeks ever...so many good news n’ so many bad news...lots of hopes n’ lots of worries...so many mixed emotions need to be dealt with...so much to figure out...so much work to do n’ again not so much time to do any!!...

It was planed this Thursday me n’ my sweet friend were supposed to go through this together but she chickened out on me...lucky me!!...by the end of the day I was so hyper n’ tense my only thought was “SCREW IT”...really how hard can it be?!!...I read the “How To” online...how painful can it be?!...just “SCREW IT!!”...anyhow I could really use a pain distraction!!...so I made sure everything was clean n’ sterilized n’ it was only a matter of 2 minutes n’ VOWALA!!!...I pierced my own nose!!! n’ they lied...it doesn’t hurt at ALL!!!...so far am loving it...

Evolution or IS IT?!

2008-07-21T04:52:00.001+03:00

Back in primary school days when dear dad used to send us to sleep at 8 PM I truly believed what he said that we need those 12 hours of sleep in order to develop a healthy brain n' if we had anything less than that we seriously feared for our sanity n' wondered if we r gonna grow up to be somehow retarded...after all parents never lie in those pinky days n' although I know now that all they really wanted is to have quiet evenings that theory is still NOT proven wrong :D ...few years latter my parents reduced our sentence to 9 hours n' with some negotiations we accomplished a settlement for 8...now as a grown up I believe 6 hours w'd be ideal...5 w'd be convenient...4 r just about enough...n' in crises (i.e. exams) 3 hours r doable...is this evolution or what?!! after all evolution is just a theory!!...

AND THERE'S TWO OF THEM TOO!!

2008-07-17T17:24:00.006+03:00

Look what I found while I was studying Arabic...it kept me wondering for a while n' I could've sworn it is a verb!! But am never so sure! :P

أعرب ما تحته خط

الحق والقوة كفيلان بعزة الأمة

My SAW III Experience

2008-07-14T17:55:00.002+03:00

So I was home alone doing some serious studying...feeling really hungry I went into the kitchen n' fixed me something to eat...I decided to take a break n' watch some TV...I flipped through some channels n' then there it was SAW III was on almost half way through...I didn’t even see the I n' II though I was planning to do that cuz my friend told me it is too sick even for me!! I had my doubts about that so I thought watching it w'd be something but eating while doing so will be the ultimate something :P...when it was over I was happy that I managed to keep all the food down though I felt nauseous for a couple of hours after that n' YES!!! IT IS SICK!!! more than I thought it w'd be!! but I guess being alone all the cursing n' freaking out really helped :P...n' BTW I was so alarmed to see how average the guys who made all this up looks like!!!

Addicted to Numbness

2008-07-07T10:36:00.000+03:00

Am not a control freak but the person I really enjoy controlling the most is me...being able to block all unwanted feelings n’ pointless thoughts just to be able to function well as human being cuz I just know that dealing with those w’d require too much time n’ energy all which I can’t afford these days...just giving in n’ letting my mind go numb in away a bomb w’d fall near me n’ it wont even bother me much...ppl. w’d be fighting n’ killing each other in front of me n’ I won’t even care to say a word...ppl. sometimes wonder what kind of drugs am on...but I swear to God am not using any...not that I haven’t thought of it before but no I don’t need it when I can do this...though am not so sure about the side effects cuz am really starting to think it’s addictive...something I’ve been doing for no good reason lately...not knowing if it’s a good or a bad thing am still a very happy person but a thoughtless n’ emotionless one!!!...

Pulling the plug on what I used to call my brain
In a way I won't have to give in to my pain
Surrender to being comfortably thoughtless
Don’t care for sparks, I love my darkness!
Go on n' take the lead, I don’t have to follow
Am here today n' I'll be here tomorrow...

Something to think about

2008-07-01T17:18:00.000+03:00

This really made me reflect on some of the blessings we take for granted...taken from the Autobiography of Malcolm X the chapter entitled "Saved"...this is what he said describing his first attempts to pray...

"The hardest test I ever faced in my life was praying. You understand. My comprehending, my believing the teachings of Mr. Muhammad had only required my mind's saying to me, "That's right!" or "I never thought of that."
But bending my knees to pray-that act-well, that took me a week.

You know what my life had been. Picking a lock to rob someone's house was the only way my knees had ever been bent before.

I had to force myself to bend my knees. And waves of shame and embarrassment would force me back up.
For evil to bend its knees, admitting its guilt, to implore the forgiveness of God, is the hardest thing in the world. It's easy for me to see and say that now. But then, when I was the personification of evil, I was going through it. Again, again, I would force myself back down into the praying-to-Allah posture. When finally I was able to make myself stay down-I didn't know what to say to Allah."

The Autobiography of Malcolm X: Done

2008-06-24T15:56:00.000+03:00

Finally am done reading the Autobiography of Malcolm X...it is something I wanted to do for YEARS but it took me years to find the book n' I didn’t want to rush reading it so it took me longer than I expected but I really enjoyed every word of it and it sure deserves a re-read...

It's the story of a man who survived dramatic transformations in his beliefs a man with a message of change a man who courageously stood firm in the face of his enemies and was ready to sacrifice everything in the pursuit of seeking the pleasure of Allah and justice for his people...

My favorite part was his pilgrimage to Mecca...I stayed all night reading it n' when I was done I was never more proud to be a Muslim...now I do believe that there was more to his death than the Nation of Islam but God knows...

El-Hajj Malik El-Shabazz R.I.P.

Gobbledygook!!

2008-06-16T02:05:00.000+03:00

So what if you don’t always get what you want...it’s not the end of the world...this will teach u how to appreciate what u already have...n’ what if what u already have is not what u always wanted...ok maybe this will teach u how to appreciate what u already had...but what’s the point then!!...this is going no where...u r going nowhere...but what the hell is the point of going anywhere when there’s really nowhere to go!!...forget it u r wasted!!...u don’t know what u want!!...yaa whatever!!...

“This is me talking nonsense to me”

Zombie Demons

2008-03-13T16:03:00.001+02:00

Rising from the dead and hunting me again!! I killed them before...I can do it again...so help me God!!

!!

2008-03-12T22:20:00.000+02:00

NUMB . . . NUMB . . . NUMB . . . . . . . . . .

Now n' Then

2007-12-17T22:29:00.000+02:00

Looking at my blogger profile down there…somehow it felt funny…I took the time to write it when I first started blogging back in 2005 I still cant believe it’s been two years already!!...i can say it was the first serious profile for me n’ I copied n’ pasted it since then…
How much of the person I used to be is left?!...Lets see!!

Somehow I still don’t always know what exactly I want...but now I can clearly say I know exactly what I don’t want…

I guess consciously or not i still offend thin-skinned ppl. but I learned my lesson the hard way to tone it down...

Yesterday, today, tomorrow n’ forevermore my hate for racism and racists was, is and will always be as intense as ever...

I think i got over my 2pac obsession n’ I can say that it is much more healthier now...i still like him as an artist n’ as a man :P...i still believe in everything good he represented...i still believe he converted to Islam n’ now am convinced that he’s dead...

When all's said and done am still praying for better days yet to come...

Ancient History!!

2007-11-09T15:51:00.003+02:00

Going through some old stuff I stumbled on this piece of old paper...I have no idea why I kept it all these days...or should i say years!!...

I remember that I used to love math n' physics but after a whole year in collage I realized that there's nothing real about real analysis...mechanics was kinda nice though!! Either ways I failed n' looking at this piece of paper am not so sure what they meant by the piece of information circled in red!!!!

I had a good laugh out of this :)

Hearts & Minds

2007-09-23T14:42:00.000+03:00

Dear blog,

Sorry I’ve been away for so long but what can I say?!...well when life can’t get any better it can only get worse :) ...NAAA it’s not that bad not bad at all but if I learned something the past few months it would be this “am putting it here for me to remember”:

“Breaking the rules can be fun sometimes, BUT it’s never fun to break ur own rules...Get ur rules straight, get ur mind straight”

W RAMADAN KAREEM!!

Sharsha7a Day...

2007-06-25T13:54:00.000+03:00

Yesterday at work everyone was feeling down in the dumps...that's when we came up with the "Anti-Depression Club" with few selected ppl. from different departments...the activities of this club is scheduled on every Monday...
Today's activity is called "Sharsha7a Day" literal translation w'd be "Fashion-mess Day"...we get to wear whatever we want as long as we look a mess...so my choice for today was: yellow boots, fire-red socks, black skirt "so I can reveal the socks :P", orange long T-shirt+ black top with cap, brownish tie "dad's" and the T-shirt's price tag (I made sure that it was obvious enough)...guaranteed mess...

That was fun :D

When Life Can't Get Any Better!!

2007-06-09T11:53:00.000+03:00

How can I be grateful enough?!…with all the blessings!...I just don’t know where to start…God have always been so generous n’ good to me…even if I spent the rest of my life…starting tonight…praising the lord only for the blessing of having such good ppl. around inspiring me all the way… I bet when I die I will still be buried in debt …

So another year passed already…am a quarter of a century old :P…God how time keeps on flying away?!…but as long as they r good times who the hell is counting!!…

Sending out love to my family, mom n’ dad my brothers n’ the rest of my extended family some really long list…but special thanks to Razan, Dima, Lubna n’ Lil Tammam “born on the same day 9 years later“ am glad that u turned out to be a rapper after all ;P…my sweet n’ most precious friends: Nisrin, Iyad, Amal, Dareen, Husam, Diala, Ramaz, Nora, Firas n’ Maysa…I simply can’t thank u all enough guys…also surprisingly I had a birthday surprise at work…that was sooo sweet n’ I really didn’t see it coming…Thanks n’ “Happy Birthday” to Mona the other birthday girl “GIMENIES ROCK!!!” n’ many thanks to sweet Laila, squeaky Dima, Nora, Haitham, Sara n’ the rest of the gang…I really had a blast of a time!!!...well life goes on n’ hopefully it will keep on getting better n’ better…THANK U ALL & THANK U GOD!!!...

Tag: 10 simple pleasures of mine

2007-05-13T15:12:00.000+03:00

A nice cup of coffee first thin' in the morning
A 2pac song any time
A good book late at night
Hanging out with my sweet friends
Picking up a fun fight with my brothers :P
A good night sleep
When a simple wish come true
When problems solve themselves
Taking a hot bath on a cold day

Watching a nice movie

More ppl. To tag: 3ammo Sam, 3mmo Rahaf and 3ammo Noura...

The rules:
You have to use the picture in my post...You have to list exactly 10 points...You have to tag 3 bloggers when you are done.

FOR GOD SAKE!

2007-05-06T10:00:00.000+03:00

First I thought it was some stupid joke...some ppl. with a lot of money n’ time to waist but after the third SMS I realized that those folks r serious...
Am talking about those new Islamic satellite TV channels...some have good graphics and interactive stuff...like the SMS bar...well...not exactly the kind of SMS I expected to see on an Islamic channel...
Here’s a sample using literal translation:Wanted a wife no. 2 “2nd wife ya3ni not to be mistaken for something else :P”: fertile, tall, beautiful and have an apartment...
I bet they receive some pretty good replies...of course all is for God sake!!! n’ who the hell r we to say other wise?!!...

Too much estrogen

2007-04-01T13:05:00.001+03:00

This is more like a nagging post but what the hell!!...i share my new office at the new job with some other 3 girls who r driving me crazy…if I hear another word about learning a new dance or some new collection at some fancy store or some new shoes…someone is definitely going to get hurt…too much crap too much nonsense too much yaaaayee…there's nothing more annoying to me than over pretentious girly girls…why wont they just get over themselves n' drop dead…
I'll try to think of it as a challenge…if I can somehow influence a couple of them or simply just try not to beat the crap out of them…yet a bigger challenge for me :)…

How I hold on to my pencil?!

2007-02-20T14:56:00.000+02:00

I always hated that ppl. always borrow my pencil at the office n' never give it back when it's the only thing I like to write with...So I came up with an idea...so far it it's working...not even that...when am offering it no one seems to be interested!!...Wonder why?!...

*there’s ‘ ه’ letter missing in the pic. * ... In English “this pencil is for donkeys-keep ur hands off”
I’ve been waiting for this a long time now...finally my boss was in a rush today and asked me for my pencil...i gave it to him n’ took off so he can figure it by himself...boy u should see the look on his face :D

"Off" is the word!

2007-02-15T11:38:00.000+02:00

I did not quit on blogging. Thank you very much…

But I’ve been so off lately probably for the following reasons:

- Am between jobs now, I’ll be working with the new ppl. next month. While the old ones are giving me hard time Cuz they don’t want me to leave…

- Exams are on, with a great possibility that I might not make it to the third year as scheduled…

- My dear family are treating me overly nice probably cuz they can see how much am stressed out...

- It’s been ages since the last time I went to any of my grammas’ house…and it is starting to get into the “7aram”, “sin” zone…

- Am so disconnected from my friends and it’s killing me the most…

SHOOT ME!!!

2006-12-05T12:04:00.000+02:00

Ever tried to forward two emails at the same time...opening two windows...one with an extremely funny stuff...and the other with an extremely embracing stuff (that r supposed to be funny...but not anymore!!)....after checking every name on the address book for the first....and just a female co-worker address for the second....and after clicking on SEND it turned out that the two emails somehow got sent all together to the "every single name on my address book" including an X-boss....

I really want to kill myself...after killing my coW-worker...

NEVER EVER try to send two emails at the same time...or maybe NEVER EVER SEND EMAILS AT ALL...I REALLY HATE MYSELF NOW!!!!...SOMEONE SHOOT ME PLEASE!!!!....

Perfectly Senseless!!!

2006-11-15T12:03:00.000+02:00

Contemplating on the famous saying: " Its better to have loved and lost…Than never to have loved at all "…I always thought that it is stupid and could never be true…
Which brings me to this joke I heard today…it's not bad at all if u r not eating :P…
Two guys walking down the street when they came across a pile of shit…the 1st guy: 'is this a pile of shit?!'…the 2nd guy: ''no it isn't"…'I bet it is'…"I bet it isn't"…'trust me it is'…"trust me it isn't"…'I'll prove it'…he bent over and tasted it…'see I told u it is shit'…still…"no it isn't"…'trust me it is'…"no it isn't"…'try it then'…the 2nd guy tries it…"oh ya it is shit!"…'see I told u'…"ya good thing we didn't step in it!!!"…
So at the end…"it's better to taste the shit than to step in it!!!"

Like my new scarf?!...well I do...

2006-10-29T15:41:00.000+02:00

I saw something like it somewhere on TV and instantly I sat my mind on this...it took me three days only to complete this more than 2 meters scarf *knock on wood*...while it took me additional 6 days to post this *knock on my wooden head*...

You can call me "M3etteh" but nothing can measure up to the feeling of building something from scratch and see it build up till the last knot is tied...

BONJOUR!

2006-10-09T10:27:00.000+02:00

4:45 AM...the first attempt to wake me up for Fajer prayer...of course it didn't work....but then down the street a woman screaming!...glass breaking!...u think it's an accident?!...well think again!!!...

I got up like crazy n' went out on the balcony to check it n' I could see that my brothers r already standing at the window...i can see a Taxi and a young woman standing next to it...i thought attempt kidnap...but NO!!!...
The young woman then moved across the side fence of our building...throwing stones at a window at in our building...when she started shouting again "Ya (a guy's first name)" "the son of (a well known family name)"..."come n' pick your B**** ur sister from the streets"..."u don’t wanna come out don’t u"..."I'll call the police...i'll show u...u n' the B*** sister"...then she got in the cab again n' left...
I got in n' went to pray...but after 10 minutes...O.M.G. she's screaming again...but this time she said "Ya (a girl's first name)"..."the daughter of (the same well known family name)"..."leave my husband alone u B****"..."find urself some F**** single man"..."just leave my husband alone u B****"...
She got back to the cab n' took off again...by then the sun almost came up...n' could clearly see that she's a very attractive woman (Perfect Hair & Perfect Body)...n' a lot of ppl. were staring from their balconies...what a scene!!!...
I thought it's over by now...but NOO!!!...10 minutes latter...the screaming is back "if I saw u down the street I'll cut in two u B****" "I swear to God I'll kill u B****"...this time an elderly woman n' a young guy...what appeared to be the girl's very confused mom n' brother approached..."U say am a B****"..."I'll show u a B****"..."u wanna bring me the cops"..."am waiting right here"..."but u need to learn how to discipline that B**** daughter of urs"...she took off again screaming all the way...

By then it was 6:15 AM...i took a look at our lovely neighborhood...fancy cars!...fancy places!...fancy ppl.!...but how many shitty lives this FANCY is hiding?!!!...
I also said goodbye to 2 hours of sleep which w'd have made a nice sum of 4 hours :(...what a way to start a day!...

YOU WILL BE FORGOTTEN

2006-10-04T22:12:00.000+02:00

Last night I literally cleaned up my closet...i got rid of some old books n' notebooks...it's good to remember how we used to pick up a pen to write so many pages...it's good to remember how I used to be a math & physics girl...

All I can say now is goodbye Vector Calculus...goodbye Vector Analysis...goodbye atomic structure...goodbye Linux...goodbye Oracle...goodbye C++ builder...am sorry I have to say this…YOU WILL BE FORGOTTEN...

Good to know!

2006-09-16T12:43:00.000+03:00

Lately I was occupied at the Damascus International Fair as the company i work for had a big private booth there...

What caught my eyes this year is there's no sign for the Saudi or the Egyptian flags i don't know how many other countries dropped out this year!!!...well...BOOHOO!!!...as if!!!...

There was this young business woman from China "Ms. Ma" that we were supposed to keep busy as much as we could so she won't get the chance to meet others...

So i gathered a bunch of guys n' two girls she already been introduced to and my brother n' went looking for her...when we finally found her n' i introduced my brother to her...her immediate reply was not nice to meet u or any other formal reply!!..."u r so handsome"..."all of u r so good looking here"..."Just like movie stars"...that's what she said...i didn't know what to say except "well too bad they r all taken"..."except for my brother"...her reply was simply "i know a Chinese girl who w'd love to marry u"...of course my brother's smile was up to his ears...i guess he'll be hearing from her soon :P...boy we mad a scene there...

After all isn't it good to know that Syrian ppl are handsome JUST LIKE MOVIE STARS...

What do u see when u look at me?

2006-08-29T12:28:00.000+03:00

What do you see when you look at me
Do you see someone limited,
or someone free?
All some people can do is just look and stare
Simply because they can't see my hair.
Others think I am controlled and uneducated
They think that I am limited and un-liberated.
They are so thankful that they are not me
Because they would like to remain 'free.'
Well free isn't exactly the word I would've used
Describing women who are cheated on and abused.
They think that I do not have opinions or voice
They think that being hooded isn't my choice.
They think that the hood makes me look caged
That my husband or dad are totally outraged.
All they can do is look at me in fear
And in my eye there is a tear.
Not because I have been stared at or made fun of
But because people are ignoring the One up Above.
Maybe the guys won't think I am a cutie
But at least I am filled with more inner beauty.
Real men are able to appreciate my mind
And aren't busy looking at my behind.
Hooded girls are the ones really helping the muslim cause
The role that we play definitely deserves applause.
We have the strength to do what we think is right
Even if it means putting up a life long fight.
You see we are not controlled by a mini skirt and tight shirt
We are given only respect, and never treated like dirt.
So you see, we are the ones that are free and liberated
We are not the ones that are sexually terrorized and violated.
We are the ones that are free and pure
We're free of STD's that have no cure.
So when people ask you how you feel about the hood
Just sum it up by saying 'Baby, its all good!' ;)

A girl named Nadia from Sweden once wrote this poem about girls wearing hijab (covring up their hair)...well it must be said that things are different around here, but still!!

Modern History My A**

2006-08-07T12:55:00.000+03:00

History was my most hated class in school...especially when it was about our modern history...i used to think its sooo stupid...how any retarded half-brained idiot can accept such treaties and agreements...even a stupid child could see that it's not fair and it's not in our favor!...
Now to the coming generation it will be ancient history...and i can't help but to wonder what will they think about their modern history?!!!...

Barbarians!

2006-07-18T10:49:00.000+03:00

Please distribute let the whole world see the atrocity of the Israili barbarians.

Cowards fail to confront the resistant they target innocent children.

UN refuse to protect these children, Israel intentionally targeted them.

Syrian Bloggers say: Today, we are all Lebanese

2006-07-17T10:27:00.000+03:00

Today, we are all Lebanese.

Lebanon has been sentenced to death. On Wednesday 12July, she was put in prison, and now she's beingtortured.
Syria and Lebanon haven't had the best relationshipover the past year, but there isn't one Syrian whowishes Israel's deadly war on our neighbour.
Israel's war is with Lebanon's civilians, notHizbollah. Nearly every person killed has been acivilian. Power stations, bridges and petrol stationshave been targeted. Israel has warned residents to getout of certain villages, but bombed roads make itdifficult - and refugee convoys have been picked outfor deadly air raids.
And getting out of the country is impossible now too.The airport has been destroyed, the sea ports areblockaded, and the border posts and highways have beenrazed to the ground.
Lebanon is held hostage to the angry Israeli warmachine. And every Syrian blogger stands by her.
Another generation of Lebanese will know nothing butwar. We can't let this happen. Again.
This post has been supported by the group of Syrian bloggers at Syria Planet.

HAZY VIEW!

2006-07-15T15:12:00.000+03:00

No matter how much news u watch every day u can't imagine how ugly war can be!...
Oh My God...places I used to pass by like every day...and there's one TV channel that shoots from a place that seems to be right from my window right from our balcony!...what once was a cheerful view of the sea side is now a missed up dark hazy traumatized view!...
Though it seems that Mr. Hasan Nasralla is the only real MAN alive...and I admire every word of his...but I sure hope that this war won't go for long...cuz no matter how arrogant n' mean the Lebanese ppl r none ever should go through this terror...

So much for World Cup 2006

2006-07-02T17:03:00.000+03:00

So Brazil lost the game and the world cup is over to me...ya3ni it is a big deal to me...it's a dam shame...

But I would like to say something for those who called me after the game to scorn n' teas me...

Even though it was past midnight...even though I could hardly breathe...even though i was extremely upset...
I answered your call...
Even thought I could turn my phone off...even though I could press the red button...even though I could let it keep on ringing forever...
But now i know this as a fact...
After your absurd phone call...the game score is still the same...Brazil is still out...
BUT...the numbers on ur phone bill r much bigger than before...I know now how far u can go...and so much for being there when I need u...so much for friendship...

The World Cup starts Today!

2006-06-13T12:43:00.000+03:00

Finally it's the first game for Brazil and I can't be more sure that we're gonna win...

Funny how both Syria and Brazil are classified in what is so called third world countries...they won the world cup 5 times and I can't remember when we ever won anything...who knows?!!...

My Birthday...My cool new Key chain...

2006-06-11T18:03:00.000+03:00

2 days ago I celebrated my birthday on the 8th of June...

I just loooooved my new key chain :D it's the coolest ever (4m Iyad & Nisrin) Thank u guys...i don’t know when or how or even why I have a thin' for cows ;P...

I just wanna say thanks to all of you how remembered starting from My family, Nisrin, Oula, Ammar, Ramaz, Lubna, Amal, Diala, Rahaf (Me ;), Dareen, Dema, Razan, Iyad, Hussam,Noor, Sara, Ahmad and Maysa...

Love you all!...

S.N.A Syrian Naggers Association :D

2006-06-07T15:18:00.000+03:00

This is an announcement I should've made long time ago but I've been busy ;p…
Am officially a part of the Lots Of NAGGING blog team...thanks to Rahaf now I have the chance to express some of my darkest thoughts there :P...well the least I can say that now I can practice my hobby of nagging my way out there!...
I believe that nagging is a kind of fine art that need to be handled with patience and it's never just a girly thing...cuz the most notorious naggers I've ever met are guys...

Someday - Flipsyde

2006-06-04T11:58:00.000+03:00

Try to lie but it ain't me Ain't me

Try to look but I can't see

Can't stop right now cause I'm too far

And I can't keep goin' cause it's too hard

In the day in the night it's the same thing

On the field on the block it's the same game

On the real if you stop then it's no pain

But if you can't feel pain then it's no gain

Rearrange and you change and it's all bad

And you try to maintain but you fall back

And you crawl and you slip and you slide down

Wanna make it to the top better start now

So I hold my soul and I die hard

All alone in the night in the graveyard

Someday one day I'm gonna be free and they won't try to kill me for being me

Hey someday...

You know we're gonna lose it someday

And we tryin' to hold it all together but the devil is too clever

so I'm gonna die you gonna die we gonna die

Someday one day I said...

Am soooo buying their album...

Trigger...

2006-05-21T16:37:00.000+03:00

Yesterday I needed something to clean my earrings before butting them on so I found this nail polish remover...it is mostly alcohol...after I returned it back to it's place I took another look at it...what the hell it's doing on the shelf over my bed?!!!...it so does not belong there!!...
That's when it hit me all over again...the dates on that bottle 1998-2002...O' MY GOD it's expired 4 years ago...I put it there myself to remind me that one day I might wanna stop biting my nails n' put some nail polish...how some stupid object can trigger so many bad memories...i just quieted everything was in my hands...
It was my cousin's wedding party(not to mention that we were so close n' she was 15 at that time n' I was crying the whole time) my mom challenged me and we had a bet that she would buy me some nail polish if I can manage to grow my nails...well that was the year 1998...at the end I lost the bet but I used my charm n' she bought me not one but two transparent and pearly white...i gave away the first to a younger cousin n' kept the other it's dry now n' look disgusting...but I kept it anyway...I started this awful habit the year 1996 now 10 years latter I take a look at my bloody swollen ugly finger nails n' cant help but to tell myself what the hell is wrong with u?!...i thought u r much stronger than that!...

http://www.engrish.com/

2006-05-16T16:14:00.000+03:00

Some humor certainly won't hurt...one of my nicest findings on the net...make sure you check it some time...also try the Adults Engrish...that's of course if you are an Adult :P...

Screw-Taiwan

Retarded-flights

Oneself-terminating-machine

Detached...

2006-05-13T15:05:00.000+03:00

Some shit I wrote about 2 months ago...but it still feels the same!...

- Everywhere I touch it feels so cold!...
- I thought I heard someone say
- "Hurry up!" feelings are on sold...
- Believe me I tried but I just couldn't
- All my life I've been taught that I shouldn't...
- Is it because I like being free?!!...
- Or is it because am blind n' I just can't see?!...
- Either ways am numb n' am glad about it
- Who cares for sorrow?!...
- "Not Me" hear me shout it...
- "Eyes on the Prize" lord hear me say...
- Whatever happens I'll stay this way...
- Who cares if I ended up alone, as long as I got you!
- Fear never shall be ear n' forever secure...

Self Nudge!

2006-05-13T00:28:00.000+03:00

Well I guess its time for me to wakeup and smell the shit...No more Mister Nice Girl...am really done with that...

People never stop surprising me!...how some perfectly nice person all of a sudden shows his/her true colors and all of sudden you just can't trust ppl. or even trust your self and your own judge of character..

And like my sweet 2pac said:
I can be a villian if ya let me
I'll Muthafuck ya
if ya do upset me
tell the cops to come and get me!

Funny how the song title is HEARTZ OF MEN!...:D

Shoulder to cry on...NAAAA!...

2006-04-05T22:52:00.000+03:00

The moment i opened my eyes this day it just felt wired...my brain was absolutely working on safe mode...not even 5 cups of coffee helped...at work there's a lot of work to do but somehow a stupid virus damaged the server and every other computer at the company...we hardly could operate on one pc...all day i was wondering around disorientated...i desperately needed a hug...i thought how wonderful it would be if i had a shoulder to cry on...
But now it's almost 11 PM...thinking how amazing what a couple of friendly phone calls and a couple of 2pac songs can do!...and hopefully tomorrow is just another cheerful happy day!....

Caught up in life…

2006-03-26T11:16:00.000+02:00

Will it's about time!...i seriously missed my blog n' I think I owe it an explanation...
Dear Blog!...
am sorry I had to leave you for a while but wallahi I was so busy...first I had my exams...thank God I did very well n' am proud of it...then I changed my job...I wasn't planning to...but things just happened...i let new ppl into my life...some am glad to keep n' some others am not so sure!...Also some ppl. Just got out of my life ...some I had to let go n' others just took off by themselves!...I got back to a very bad habit I thought I got rid of long time ago...am laughing more...eating less...sleeping more...dreaming less...crying more...n' caring much much more less...but still...things r just fine thanks to all my friends n' loved ones wallahi you are the light of my life!...so I guess am back...

Generations...

2005-12-31T15:20:00.000+02:00

This weekend I had the strangest conversations...first I discovered that my 12 years old cousin have the complete Eminem n' 50cent collection...boy i was shocked 8/...so i felt like it was my duty to sit down with him n' gave him some "PARENTAL ADVISORY"...since his parents probably can't or wont deal with such thing...so i explained few points about what's good n' what's bad in rap music...n' i tried to make sure he'll stick to the good ones only...hehe!...i even had this 2pac VS. Eminem n' 50cent talk...i don't think he'll change his mind but at least i tried :P...

The next one took place when i was watching the former vice president interview with my family...when all of a sudden my 7 years old brother ask me...WHAT HAPPENED TO THE MASK MAN "Al MUQANA3"?!...honestly first i thought he was saying this suggesting to change the channel on some cartoons...again to my amazement he was asking about the witness in the Millis investigation 8/...
Well hope the generations to come will be ready to face the challenges of their time...n' continue to finish what we couldn't!...SO HELP THEM GOD!...

Submission, Islam & Willpower

2005-12-27T23:34:00.000+02:00

Thank God am in some kind of peace with myself n' the world these days...so i came across a 600something pages book my mom is reading...usually i wont even come near these books...the book's name is "Al Mu3en, Al Mueen"...so i took a random shot...it talks about how that the submission to God in Islam doesn't contradict the dignity, freedom n' grace of every human being...
A saying for Eben Taymeyh: "Any person who egoism stops him/her from worshiping God and following his guiding principles...no doubt he/she will be worshipping something else...because humans are driven by willpower...and every will leads to a goal...so those who disregard God and his loving teachings as a glorifying goal will find themselves idolizing other things and will end up worshipping it...wither it's Money, Power or Image... So the more a human being devote him/her self to God the more he/she will be liberated from any other creature"

أرى طالب الدنيا وإن طال عمره . . . ونال من الدنيا سروراً و انعما
كـــــــــبان بنى بنيــانه فـأقــامه . . . فلمـا استوى ماقد بناه تهدمــا

Just say i do!...

2005-12-21T23:03:00.000+02:00

NO it's not about a marriage proposal...but the thing is yesterday not 1 not 2...6 of my friends...either i ran into or called me...well the 6 of them told me about their screwed up relationships...i like to think of myself as a really very positive person...but come on people what's wrong?!...since i came back to this country that's about 5 years ago...i never heard about a successful relationship!!...

am not an expert when it comes to relationships n' i'll never BE...but just a little piece of advise...GuYs...stop being so ARROGANT...GiRlS...stop being so DRAMAcidal...

let's do a kind of a survey here...if anyone around here ever met someone who had a successful relationship...just say i do!...n' when i say met...i mean like really shock hands with at least once...cus the "the brother of a sister in law was a neighbor of a friend of mine" don’t count...

hehe what u know!...this post is over with not even a starred word :D...

Life! or So they SaY!

2005-12-17T16:26:00.000+02:00

Arthur Ashe, the legendary Wimbledon (tennis championship) player was dying of CANCER...he received letters from his fans from all over the world...one of which conveyed: "Why does GOD have to select you for such a bad disease?"...To this Arthur Ashe replied: all over the world 50 Million child start playing tennis, 5 Million learn to play tennis, 500,000 learn professional tennis, 50,000 come to The circuit, 5000 reach the grand slam, 50 reach Wimbledon, 4 to semi final, 2 to the finals, and one winner...When I was holding the cup I never asked GOD "Why me?"...And today in pain I should not be asking GOD "Why me?"
Happiness keeps u Sweet...Trials keep u Strong...Sorrow keeps u Human...Failure Keeps u Humble...Success keeps u Glowing...But only God Keeps u Going..... "A winner is not one who never fails...but one who never QUITS!"...

Back !

2005-12-17T16:22:00.000+02:00

I thought I would never live to see my Dashboard again :D...

- SLEEP DEPRIVED -

2005-12-06T16:47:00.000+02:00

Put a scarf around it n' change the nose a little bit n' I would look exactly like that :P

I'll never steal my dad's car again...I'll never steal my dad's car again...

2005-11-22T11:13:00.000+02:00

So it's just one of those days where everything is just so dam **********...(i made a promise to myself i wont use bad words in this post...so am trying!)...i showed up at work 30 minutes late...n' i have a French test later in witch i knew nothing about...but i told myself it's ok...i can manage to find at least an hour at work to study few words...well it turned out to be one of those days when i barley had time breath...n' the ******* girl next door(from my previous post "so consumed") entertained me with some ***** DRAMA :S...then i went back home n' i hade only 30 minutes to read few words before heading for the test!...well i forgot myself studying n' ran out late...so i told myself " u have to take u'r dad's car"...keeping in mind that it's not ok with my dad for me to take the car "long sorry!"...LUCKY me the GAS light was flashing...thank god i had some extra money to fill it with gas but first i have to pick up a girl living near bye...she had to be late 8/...Rushing like crazy to the gas station n' then to the one of the most ***** obnoxious places in this town where they had to build the French cultural center..."Ba7sah" what's with that name anyway?!...again with my ***** luck...no place to park...i went for at least two blocks...try to find ur way in those one way narrow streets with cars parked on both sides :S...n' am late remember!...so here comes the drama...i thought i found myself a place to park but it turned out to be a dead end...going backwards i hit a taxi parked on the side...the driver in his mid 40s...i just froze n' got out of the car n' asked some guy to park it right!...the girl that was with me is one of those mean ***** girls she started raising her voice on him n' i had to shut her up n' push her away...i mean really push her away like guys push each others in fights...though it was a mild scratch the guy threatened to call the cops...n' i told him please leave them out of it...then he asked me to call my dad...well saying my dad's gonna kill me...i also told him that u can call the cops or even take me to the police station but am definitely not gonna call my dad!...i asked him what now?!...he said: how much u gonna pay me to fix this...i told him that i don't know how much these things costs...again he asked me to bring some one from my side to estimate it...i told him clearly that am not gonna call anyone n' am gonna deal with this all by myself...i can see that he was amazed to her that!...so a guy from his side said give him 500...i looked at my friend n' told her that i only have 250 after i filled the car with gas...she went into her purse to see how much she got...when another guy...well i don't know how many guys were there but quite more than 10...so that guy stepped in the middle n' said give me the 250 so i gave it to him then he took the 50 n' returned them to me n' gave the rest to the taxi driver...well he said nothing n' i was relieved...n' some guy from a near hotel offered to park the car at the hotel...so he took it of course with my friend while i just standed there in shock...how i ever got out of it with only 200!...to my surprise the taxi driver ended up apologizing to me n' telling me how "2kaber" n' diplomat I am n' how a b**** my friend was...n' he sincerely offered to give me back the money...i strongly refused n' thanked him for it...n' the hotel guy also sincerely offered to give me some money!...rushing back to the French course with my friend swearing all the way while i was still in shock...the test was canceled :)...but the lesson we took was a tuff one n' i understood nothing of it :(...after that i discovered that my dad's car was in a mess with a serious twist at the right door...n' on my way home i took 2 wrong turns n' got a ticket for passing a red light i honestly didn't see cus the cars in front of me were moving...so that's just about it!....see how nice my day was?!!!!!....

More than a Flag...

2005-11-21T09:28:00.000+02:00

I love my country I love my flag...
None ever should argue with that!...

Ladies First....Très Gentille!!!!

2005-11-14T23:27:00.000+02:00

I came home after a long busy day…turned the TV on to see what's new...but I didn't feel like watching the news so instead I turned to my beloved mom n' asked her if there's any new news worth watching...so she told me that they caught one woman from the Jordan suicide-bombers attacks...
OK...so According to Jordanian official: the guy (the Suicider) actually waited for his wife to go first....But when she didn't blow...He asked her to go out?!!!!....R u Serious?!!!....

I ended up watching the news anyway...i needed to hear it for myself....So what exactly was he or she thinking...did they count to three...if they did then the dead husband defiantly cheated cus he didn’t go on three :D...

P.S. the woman's story on this turned out to be a completely different story...but here I commented on the official story...

...Good advice in any world...

2005-11-13T16:44:00.000+02:00

The following lines r quoted from Planet Grenada one of my favorite blogs......I asked for permission of course.....

Choose your leaders with wisdom and forethought. To be led by a coward is to be controlled by all that the coward fears. To be led by a fool is to be led by the opportunists who control the fool. To be led by a thief is to offer up your most precious treasures to be stolen. To be led by a liar is to ask to be lied to. To be led by a tyrant is to sell yourself and those you love into slavery.

AND

Beware; all too often we say what we hear others say. We think what we are told that we think. We see what we are permitted to see. Worse, we see what we are told that we see. Repetition and pride are the keys to this. To hear and to see even an obvious lie again and again and again, maybe to say it almost by reflex, and then to defend it because we have said it, and at last to embrace it because we've defended it.

BEAUTIFUL EYES!!

2005-11-07T12:41:00.000+02:00

like two years ago...or even more...i was watching a French movie with English subtitles on TV5...nothing else to watch on ARAB SATE :(...the film was already started for a while...but i could see that it's about two strangers who sat next to each other on a long distance bus trip...they never met before...the first was like at his early 20ies n' the second was at his mid 40ies...long story short they were sharing info. like the young one talking about what's hot n' new n' the old one is sharing his experience n' wisdom...the bus stopped for gas n' short recess...the two guys sat down at a table in the dinner...they started talking about WOMEN...well it's about time!!...
a beautiful girl passed them by n' sat at a near by table...let's see...if the human body can be divided into 2 parts horizontally...well the second half of the girl's body took over the TV screen...but luckily i got to see her face two shots later...not bad at all...
the essence of this post was the following dialog that took place between the 2 men...

Young man: Oweee!!...what was that about?!!...

Old man: Nice ha?!

Young man: sure...but it's getting harder n' harder to deal with women these days!...

Old man: why r u saying that?!

Young man: com on it's obvious...women r getting more complicated each day!

Old man: i know that!...but still there's some things that remain unchanged.......bla bla bla....

Young man: but still...u can't just go to this nice lady n' say: hey...nice Ass u got there!....

Old man: it's quit easy my friend...

Young man: u cant be serious...do wanna get me killed or something?!...

Old man: No...but u can always say: hey...u have very beautiful eyes!...

Young man: HA?!! 8/...

Old man: ya! ;)...

Young man: AHHH! ;)

bottom line he tried it n' it worked like magic...So every time some one tell me that i have beautiful eyes i try so hard to hide a big laugh...but miraculously i manage to say thanks :D...

Tagmaina - Part Three -

2005-11-07T12:32:00.000+02:00

This tag was origionaly stolen from Omar n' passed to me by Gray Fox...i couldn't see how this can get anyone psychologically naked!...but here it goes anyway...

01. What is your favorite word?
Words starting with "STR"...straight...struggle.....

02. What is your least favorite word?
The Arabic word of "honor"...

03. What turns you on creatively, spiritually or emotionally?
A 2pac song...writing...getting on the same frequency with someone (bonding)

04. What turns you off?
Gay ppl. singing love songs...

05. What is your favorite curse word?
Shut the F*** up

06. What sound or noise do you love?
The sound of chalk bar squealing on a wooden board...it's a total turn on ;)...

07. What sound or noise do you hate?
Kids playing...kids fighting...kids watching Spacetoon...

08. What profession other than your own would you like to attempt?
Infamous writer...private investigator...

09. What profession would you not like to do?
Teaching kids...

10. What would you like to hear God say when you arrive at the Pearly Gates of Heaven?
"Carry on my beloved creature...it's all yours "...

i'll just tag Tarek Amr from Ge33n Data ...n' Abdul-Halim from Planet Grenada ...

Tagmaina -Part Two-

2005-10-31T11:30:00.000+02:00

This tag is kinda special since it's from Egypt from Tarek Amr....thanks....

Se7en things I want/like to do:

1. Go to sleep
2. Have a cup of coffee
3. Shout out loud
4. Girls night out
5. Be able to speak some French
6. Laugh till i cry
7. Replace my damaged 2pac CDs

Se7en things I don't want/like to do:

1. Wake up early -but i have to go to work :S-
2. Being nice to dummies
3. Lose a friend
4. Lose a brother -leave the country...not dieing-
5. Hear a bad song
6. Wear high-heels -tell mom to give it up-
7. Meet some extended family members -being nice to dummies...All over again-

Se7en things I say most often (With Explanations):

1. Walla! = Nice!
2. Ah Wallaa?!! = r u serious?!
3. Ya 7raaam! = hehe that's gotta hurt! = am mean
4. La3beh = am in = some cute guy
5. Bueeeeeh!! *with tong hanging out* = it's dumm or i don't get it
6. Shoo Mshan?! = What r u aiming at?!
7. Deb or Debbeh = Bear = i hate u in a friendly way!...it's a good thing

P.S. some of the above r quoted from some close friends...it's a gang thing...

Se7en people I want to pass this tag to (Ladies First):

1. Cute NK2
2. Stellar
3. No one
4. Sara
5. Gray Fox
6. Omar
7. Sinan

Tagmaina -Part One-

2005-10-31T10:36:00.000+02:00

Technically this is my first tag...thanks to No one though it was a tough one...So here it goes....

*ABOUT*
Name:	Asma'a A.K.A. Sharks
Birthday:	8 June 1982
Birthplace:	Riyad KSA
Current Location:	Damascus Syria
Eye Color:	Brown occasionally Gray ;)
Hair Color:	Am not gonna tell
Height:	Slightly over 1.55 M ;p
Right Handed or Left Handed:	Right-handed
Your Heritage:	don't know
The Shoes You Wore Today:	White boots
Your Weakness:	Easily board n' talking too much
Your Fears:	Loneliness n' cockroaches
Your Perfect Pizza:	Any pizza is a perfect pizza
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	Speak some French
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	Walla!
Thoughts First Waking Up:	OOPS am late again!
Your Best Physical Feature:	None
Your Bedtime:	2:00 AM (+/- 30 min)
Your Most Missed Memory:	Some childhood memories
Pepsi or Coke:	Whatever!
MacDonalds or Burger King:	Neither
Single or Group Dates:	Group Dates
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	Whatever!
Chocolate or Vanilla:	Vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee:	Coffee
Do you Smoke:	Only when am extremely pissed off
Do you Swear:	Yes
Do you Sing:	Only to tease others
Do you Shower Daily:	No
Have you Been in Love:	I guess I've been there... It sucks big time
Do you want to go to College:	Am in already
Do you want to get Married:	Most of the times I don’t feel like it
Do you belive in yourself:	Yes
Do you get Motion Sickness:	No
Do you think you are Attractive:	Nope
Are you a Health Freak:	No
Do you get along with your Parents:	70% with mom 30% with dad
Do you like Thunderstorms:	Yes
Do you play an Instrument:	NO
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	No...EW!
In the past month have you Smoked:	NO
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	NO
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	NO
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	NO
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	NO
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	NO
In the past month have you been on Stage:	NO
In the past month have you been Dumped:	NO
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	NO
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	NO
Ever been Drunk:	NO
Ever been called a Tease:	Yes A lot!
Ever been Beaten up:	Ya...i had to fight my brothers :)
Ever Shoplifted:	NO
How do you want to Die:	Does it really matter?!
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	The president :)
What country would you most like to Visit:	Japan
*In a Boy/Girl..*
Favourite Eye Color:	Black
Favourite Hair Color:	Black
Short or Long Hair:	Short - bold even better :)
Height:	At least 15 cm taller than me
Weight:	Not skinny
Best Clothing Style:	Casual
Number of Drugs I have taken:	None
Number of CDs I own:	70 something
Number of Piercings:	3
Number of Tattoos:	None
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	None i guess!
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

I now tag Gray Fox....Cute NK2 n' Tarek Amr....thanks again No one...BTW...i really like ur name Rahaf better...

~ Happily Content ~

2005-10-11T00:47:00.000+02:00

This goes out for all the ppl. living their lives in the fast lane!...ppl. who have a lot of work to do n' a little time to think...n' not necessary getting the desired outcome of their work...

Take a few seconds to think!...At the end of it all...does it really matter?!!!...

I really don't mean to sound pessimistic...but at the end of a really busy day...when I look back at what I've done...after a very productive day...i stop to think what's next?!...cus no matter how good I am...there's always gonna be someone better!...n' no matter how far I get in this life...there's always gonna be something better!...so when can I say that am happily content with where I stand in this life?!... am not a perfectionist...but what if the answer is NEVER?!...

VISION

Close the door & turn out the lights
I had a vision I died tonight
Lying breathless on the floor
Nothing to ask or wish for
I'm glad that this sick life is over
No more cold nights...it's all over
For the last time people came to see my face
Before they bury me in a few meters of space
...
No where to go no where to hide
My soul was running from side to side
Thank u God I loved u'r gift
Cus death is the best thing I can get
…
Knocking on heaven's door with a smile
If I can get in if only for a while
All the pain will be forgotten
Who want to live when we got heaven?!

P.S. I wrote this poem way before on a really bad day…cus usually am not that dark n' creepy :)…CHEERS!…

...so consumed !...

2005-09-22T21:33:00.000+03:00

HHHHHHHH...Another boring Thursday!...it's a work day....but with no work at all :\...my boss n' her daughter are out of town n' all the others left to do some work...so I was stuck alone...with nothing to do I started going through blogs...i've been doing this for the past few days...i realized that it can be really consuming... cus I actually read them word by word....

while listening to linking park...one link lead to the other...my head started to ache...O my God....what am I doing?!!....going through all these words with all the visuals...n' some of u people really got me sucked into u'r world...i couldn't think for myself for a while...it's like am caught up in some other worlds n' ways of thinking 8...i ended up at some Canadian Muslims community blog...something about someone who's a former Black Panther (the sole black organization in the entire history of black struggle against slavery and oppression in the United States that was armed and promoted a revolutionary agenda fighting for equality, justice and freedom)...i told myself that's it....i remember doing research about them...but I never had the chance to read them offline...with the rest of the "To Read" STACK...i quit blogs n' turned linkin park off...n' went straight to "blackpanther.org"...i heard about them for the first time trough 2pac...his mom was an activist...n' I started to here about them in some movies....i do have a thin' for black ppl...when I couldn't take it any more...i went online looking for some "aimless" chatting....yay!...i found a 2pac fan I meet earlier in some Black Panther Group on the net...he's kinda nice to talk to...lucky me he was bored too :\...when I thought it's getting better...a very mushy female voice came from the back asking me if I want anything "biddek shi?"...O my God she's the girl next door!...i thought I'll make it quick n' said "salamtek!"...but I didn't get out if it this easy :(...so I had to quit everythin' listen to her...O Boy...she's the kinda girls my brother like to call "cover the Face n' fuck the Base"...not exactly my kinda girls!...now she's telling me that she's quitting her job...I had to ask why...Surprise! Surprise!....her boss is falling for her...n' poor him she don't wanna hurt him as she's starting to fall for him too...BOOHOO...since I knew this girl...every man in this world...starting from every guy in every company in our floor...is falling for her...BFFFFFF...(only in her sick mind)…for God sake!...she has a boyfriend...seeing someone on the side...n' now her boss (40 something divorced n' married again with 3 kids!!!)...lets not forget every guy in this world!...n' still I have to be nice to her...cus I know for sure that under this smily face lies a BITCH...she can bring me down as she have a very long tong witch never stop talking about ppl behind their backs :S...I really feel sorry for her...but what a day!...now I feel sorry for ME...so I turned 2pac on n' started writing this...I really felt like letting it all out...now in the back some one singing with 2pac saying somethin' about if the world is a girl he'll stick somethin' in the ground...his way of saying fuck the world :D...at the end I just wanna say to all the girls out there(the dummy ones!)...WISE UP...there's much more to life than who's falling for who!...for God sake ppl r dying out there for their beliefs...while a lot of our youth is just so consumed with bullshit!...WISE UP!...i finished with this song!...

-Oh why should you send your child off too die In the streetz of chalk where they lie And no thugz cry when thugz cry Dear God Oh why does it have to be this way, I Children of today won't stay wise Let the children hear when thugz cry Dear God, alright-
2pac"when thugz cry "

Tagging Myself....SO WHAT?!

2005-09-21T16:41:00.000+03:00

I agree with my friend GrayFox that we should do more Tagging stuff...but meanwhile i'll go on n' tag myself....So here it goes...

10 years ago: I was 13...boy I was stupid then...we just moved back from Madina K.S.A...i knew nothing except for few things my SWEET! Mom & Dad told me...Life can be so simple!...

5 years ago: 18 hmm...i was in Beirut...n' was the meanest girl ever...my philosophy back then was "nice is week"...n' am never week So naturally always MEAN...more like funny mocking mean...my fav. Habits was starting fights n' make ppl deliberately trip n' fall :P...n' when I say ppl doesn't have to mean friends any stranger w'd do ;D...

1 year ago: much nicer n' mentally stable :D...hanging out with the coolest n' dearest friends ever...

Tomorrow: tomorrow hopefully much better than today…

5 Snacks I enjoy: Milkshakes – Pizza – yalangi – Tes2eh – Ice cream...

5 bands & artists I like: 2PAC – Linkin park –Evanescence –DMX - Hoobastank...

5 Things I'd do with $100.000.000: buy myself a cool blue convertible BMW....buy myself a 5 star resort for girls only !tong hanging out!...buy my parents a mansion full of servants & exotic plants...build a hospital for the poor....here's a good one...hire a full time assassin ;)...

5 Places I would run away to: 7aram Makka & Madina...My pillow...My balcony...the most crowded place on earth...

5 Bad habits I have: Biting my nails – Messy room – over trusting ppl - waking up late –being careless sometimes...

5 things I like doing: Music is always a good idea - writing – reading novels - staying up too late at night – hanging out with friends....

5 things I will never wear: After wearing a 13cm high heels I guess there's nothing I wont be able to wear...not necessarily in public...

5TV Shows I like: Becker –Friends - Oprah – Cow & Chicken – CSI....

5 People I'd like to meet: Prophet Muhammad - 2PAC – Malcom X – Tarek ben Ziyad -Jhony depp....

5 Movies I like: Fight Club – The Game – Final Destination – Sleepy Hollow– Bedazzled ....

5 biggest joys at the moment: My health – My hair - My friends – being able to stay up late – fighting with my lil 7 years old brother...

Now I tag my sweet NK2....

KID:S

2005-09-12T16:32:00.000+03:00

I was searching for something cheerful for my blog when i found this...my friends already know I hate KID:S...

But here's why SOME TIMES i don't hate them that much :p....

Muslims bombarding the White House - what will you do?

2005-09-10T14:36:00.000+03:00

One year ago my lil brother gave me an article to read...he thought i might find it interesting...well at the time i didn't 8...but yesterday i needed some space on my flash disk...i had a LOT of reading to catch up to...that's how i came across this article again...it's dated early 2002...it's OLD i know!...but i found some email addressees n' phone no. u might wanna add to u'r phone book!....
The writer of the article named !YEHUDA!..."Bombarding" actually stands for Phone calls, emails n' faxes...he even tried to be funny at the end! :S...if u wanna read the whole article link to:

http://freerepublic.com/focus/f-news/657031/posts

But it's the comments that i found most interesting!...To get u to the point here...I'll skip right to the conclusion of the article...AM JUST QUOTING HERE!...please notice the CAPITALIZED words in the article

//////Israel is America's first line against the continued spread of Islamic terror. We must all get on the phone today, tomorrow and the remainder of this week and keep calling the White House everyday to thank President Bush and encourage him to stand even stronger with Israel, America's ONLY ally in the Mid East, and to back Israel's right and obligation to use ALL means possible against Arafat's terror machine.

Every phone call, fax, and e-mail is tallied. Phone calls and faxes are the most important. Please invest the few cents necessary to place a few long distance calls/faxes to the White House.

White House Opinion Line - 202-456-1414
White House fax - 202-456-2461

(Keep in mind that one phone-call or fax is worth 100 emails! (The White House Opinion Line is open during normal business hours M-F - 9-5, EST; the fax is on 7x24...)

All terror-sponsoring dictators must be toppled and their ability to create terrorism against Israel and the US destroyed. For Israel's sake, AND FOR AMERICA'S.

The Muslims have demonstrated their worth to the world as have their European (leaders) sympathizers.

If you do not make YOUR voice heard, the other side will. NEVER AGAIN depends on YOU. Please act NOW.

Please email, phone or FAX President Bush. If you email the President at president@whitehouse.gov,

please send a CC (carbon copy) to:
Vice President Dick Cheney
vice.president@whitehouse.gov

Republican National Committee Chairman Governor Marc Racicot
chairman@rnc.org

Secretary of State Colin Powell
secretary@state.gov [please offer him a job in private industry]/////////////

The question I think should be asked here...now that we know about those phone lines n' emails...Can WE actually do something about it?!!!.....

When he said:" Every phone call, fax, and e-mail is tallied"...first I read it "Tailed" (Followed, Chased, hunted, perused) :)...i guess my subconscious was working already...if u know what I mean?! ;)...so if someone have something to say or campaigns to launch...say it!...i'll be hiding behind the sofa in case somebody asked! ;D.......

Peace out!

Why Sharks?!

2005-09-08T13:52:00.000+03:00

This question always have to pop up...why sharks?!...usually i say cus i bite n' laugh about it...but there's a story behind that name...some of my close friends don't know it...but i think i'll share it with u...remember in my first post i said something about that almost everyone went through some kind of discrimination experience...well...here's the story of mine...

few years ago my family decided to move out to Beirut Lebanon...i was 14...i had my 10th, 11th and half of the 12th grade plus one year at the Lebanese university...back then there wasn't any tension between Syria n' Lebanon...but still Lebanese ppl hated our guts...first of all we couldn't find a school to take us in...me n' my 2 brothers...cus my English wasn't that good at the time...YA i was 1 of those (bebol)...Actually No my pronunciation was good...but my vocabulary n' dictation was a DISASTER...finally my dad managed to get us into a school owned n' ruled by a radical religious "TAKFIRI" Group...some guy at my dad's work was an active member...n' he did that hopping to get us all in the group...boy he was wrong n' we gave him some hard time...him n' all the school staff...they even called us non Muslims "KUFFAR" a couple of times!...but we never took them seriously :)...my first semester was a nightmare...i had to study Math, Physics, chemistry and the whole package in English except for 1 Arabic course n' ya i had to study English Literature...u know Shakespeare n' stuff!...i even spent the whole year trying get that WORD LETERATURE right :P...a lot of funny stories happened...but believe me back then they wasn't funny at ALL...i can't remember how much i cried :(...cus the average Lebanese student fail from 1 to 2 years in his school life...imagine our chances! 8...u should see the look in my teachers eyes...the "U R HOPELESS" look...my class mates were my enemies...they all hated me n' laughed at me big time...i hardly kept some sort of weird friendship with 2 girls...ALL this BECAUSE i was SYRIAN...but i always stood up in their face n' i can't remember how many times i started a fight about it...Thank God i passed that year with good grades too...n' to my Math BITCH surprise...I mean teacher i got the highest grade in class 18/20...n' if i didn't forgot the MEANING of the word RATIONALIZE, I would got the whole 20...it was a Bonus question for God sake!...n' ya i was elected the MEANEST girl in class;)...the next year was much better...i moved on to another school...my Lebanese accent and English was a perfection...but still my so called friends couldn't hide their hard feelings...this time i was elected the most troublesome girl in class:)...one year latter when it was the time for me to go into collage i was on top of the world...i was able to start a 3 hours conversation with a complete stranger without him or her finding out where i was from unless they asked...it sounds silly now...but it meant a lot to me back then...Cus when ppl put a LABLE on u n' JUDGE u by it...now that BITES...back to collage where i studied Math n' Physics...there i had the chance to meet ppl from almost every religion n' political party...they actually have campaigns for the student board elections...n' they fought seriously against each other...although the civil war was over...but ppl still have their own small battles...the most popular questions then was where r u from?...n' to witch party u belong?...Me being Syrian i hardly got to the next question...u know every JOKE u heard in u'r life about HOMSI n' stupid ppl...just replace the STUPID guy with a SYRIAN one...ppl from my class i don't even know their names n' they don't even have to introduce them selves...just come over to me drop a HI occasionally n' start telling me those stupid jokes...i didn't know wither should i laugh or hit them in the face...fuck em' all...it's hard to start a scene at the collage campus...so i just answered back with another joke...just replace the stupid guy with a Lebanese one...all fair...but after a while i ran out of stupid jokes...but they kept on going...n' those was the nice ones...cus some of them just come over n' say i hate u n' u'r country n' u better get the hell out of here!...so i just let them finish what they have to say...then look them in the eyes n' say that there's one more thing u don't know about Syrian...that some of them actually BITE!...n' if u don't walk away right now i swear am goanna bite u n' am not kidding...i always said it with a deep COLD smile on my face...i can be a witch some times ;)...some of them freaked out...n' some of them just cracked out laughing...that's how i got my friends...the laughing ones!...dam i miss them...unfortunately i lost contact with them...i wish i could find them some where on the net...all of them: wesam, rasha, kouthar, mariam, kareem, ghada, huda, Ali, ali n' aLI...ya three different Ali's!....so the one who came up with the name was Ali...just pick one :D...he was my best friend's boyfriend...cus although we were friends n' we hanged out a lot...but the bad comments n' jokes NEVER STOPED...some times it's so hard to take a bad joke from a friend...so my name is Asma'a it turned to Asmak :S to a strong biting SHARKS...there's been times when no one called me by my real name...n' i became Sharks since then...but am cool now...I dropped the biting game...

Remember what they say...If it doesn't KILL u...It will only make u STRONGER!...So HERE I AM !....

2pac Amaru Shakur Makaveli

2005-09-04T11:58:00.000+03:00

this is my first post n' am gonna give it my best shot hoping it wont be boring...cus i went through some blogs around here n' i think they were worth it...some of u can be really funny guys!...i laughed my brains out :)...

first of all there's something i think i should say before going through this...i made it clear that am a big tupac fan...n' for those who don't know who he is or should i say was...for me he's the God father of RAP music...not so many ppl know that but RAP actually stands for (Revolutionary Art Poetry)...

The point am trying to declare here is that i know that rap music is not popular around here...at least not among girls...So some smart ass ppl thinks that just cus i love 2pac or rap music...they think that they found themselves a BITCH...Well Braking News Am SOOOO NOT...n' besides there's the ongoing battle between Metal ppl n' Rap ppl...for God sake grow up n' give it a rest already!...

some ppl will say that rap music is all about drugs n' graphic sex...but let me tell u something...it's not all true!...i mean i know that 90% of rap songs shown on TV r about that!...but actually it makes less than 30% of what rap music got to offer...

am in no way trying to defend myself...cus really i don't have to...but i thought i w'd set the record straight cus i don't wanna receive any disturbing notes or messages about this subject...cus i had enough with it!....
Almost everyone knows that small rectangular black n' white label on Cd's covers(Parental Advisory-Explicit Content)...well all my Cd's have this label on...except maybe for 3 or 5...but it doesn't always mean that it's bad...Am drifting away from what am trying to say...so back to my sweet 2pac...He was killed the year 1996 he was 26 then...his death remains an unsolved mystery...officially labeled as gangs related murder...but personally i don't think so...after he died he got 7 albums releases..."Loyal to the Game"his last album was released at the end of 2004...n' critics said that the best of his songs was released after he died...there was a lot of theories about his death...that he faked his own death n' he's coming back to starts a strong political black party...there was a lot of things to support this theory...for example B.I.G. Smalls also known as Notorious Biggi was a main suspect in his murder...so some of 2pac songs that was released after he supposedly died in witch 2pac says " i know who shut me n' am coming back for u"...of course using a very strong language...after a while BIG also was killed in another unsolved mystery....DAM am drifting...i can talk about this forever but long story short...am convinced that he's dead now...R.I.P.

As for me...2pac songs about sex or what i call dirty songs makes way less than 30% of his records...what attracted me to him the first place was his political views and his fight against the system n' sick societies with all what it means...from fighting poverty, ignorance, racisms and any kind of discrimination n' all about what it takes to make a difference in this sick world....Some may say that their life style is way different than ours...n' we don't have racism n' discrimination problems...but i don't think so...i Believe almost everyone went through some kind of discrimination experience..." i'll talk about mine latter "...so if u listen carefully n' get to understand what he's saying u can easily relate...n' believe it or not he respects women...n' his message to men is to know the difference between real women n' bitches cus SOME men don't seem to know the difference...also religion is another thing...i love the way he talks about God...i went through almost every 2pac website n' i couldn't find one straight answer to what was his religion...they say things like he respected all religions bla bla bla...he believed that every man is his own man bla bla bla...but i strongly believed that he converted to Islam when he was in prison n' it shows in some of his songs...but no one is ready to confess that for any reason whatsoever!...

so wither it's first thing in the morning, midday or right before i go to bed or whatever mood am in...2pac is always a GOOD idea...besides no one can make me laugh or cry like he does...So give me one good reason why i shouldn't love that man!....

Peace out!